A Broken Heart

busy busy busy!!!!

2011-02-03T22:30:00.002+08:00

i've been busy working for e past 2 mths. a lot of stuffs to do aft transferring to wisma outlets. but thank God for strength. without God, i cant do so much more.

tis 2 mths of 2011, i've seen a lot of changes. jus like wat i've posted in my fb n twitter, u dun hve to hide anything if u do anything wrong. if u really wanting to hide it, tat mean u really doin sth behind my back n feeling guilty. n u always trying to sweet talk to me thinking i wil be like a fool in e past believe in watever u say. u dun know how hurt, disappointed n angry i am. now i'm tryin my best nt to contact u more as i wan to know how much i really mean to u. if u really know wat i wan, u wouldnt hve do tat. chances hve been given to u aa long time ago but u always take it for granted. nvm.. i jus let it be.

anw, hve a gd news. my manager is clearing my leaves. she given me leave for last wk n tis wk too. tis wk my off is frm wed to sun. mon then start work. woohoo. best la! ytd was CNY eve. went to my grandma house for reunion dinner. it's a yr to gain fat again. OMG!! ;( today i went to quite a lot of places for visitations. haha. more ang pao! LOLS! :P tml goin to another relatives house. n tis sat goin to watch movie wit my mum, bro n his gf. ;D

oh ya. my relatives was asking me to go taiwan wit them. hmmm.. shld i? i dunn know can i take leave not. i've been wanting to go for vacation for veri long time. it's time to hve some relaxation alr. hehe. n n n nxt mth is my birthday alr. it kinda fast sia. omg!! getting older n older alr. haizz... nvm......

shall end it here. wil post it soon when i hve e time to blog. haha. :P

tiring mth

2010-12-22T02:19:00.002+08:00

it's been such a long time since i've post. ahaha! it kind of busy n lazy.. =X hmmmm.. a lot of things happened n events goin on for e past 1 mth plusss...

hmmmm.. there r some stuffs i dun know how to explain but it seems pointless to explain so much now cos it doesnt make me happy either.. anw, had a candlelight service last wk. it's awesome! =D it's amazing wat God has created in tis world! n last sun was my 5th yr in church. i really thank God for strength all tis 5 yrs that i'm able to go thru so much ever since i came to church. without Him, i may nt be able to handle so much. He knows wat i'm goin thru.. at times i;m so faithless yet He is so faithful n a loving father. really thank God for His grace. =D

9 more days to 2011! it kinda fast somehow. thinking wat hve i done for tis whole yr, i only can say it's wasn't tat gd.. mayb 2011 wil be a better yr? i hope so..

i seriously miss u badly but...i know i'm nt ur most important one. hmmmmm..... nvm... i give up, seriously! i'm kind of tired of all tis nonsense! =(

Can time pass slower?

2010-10-08T22:31:00.000+08:00

Hmmm. I totally no mood now! :( was asking my bro tis afternoon abt e trip to canada n He said we going on nxt yr june. He said we stay for a wk to see whether we can suit e environment there. Hmmm. When I heard it, it like super sad ttm can. :( 8 mths more. It seems long But it quite short actually. :( hmmm. I was thinking how am I going to spend tis 8 mths here. Esp my frenz tat i'm close to n him too. Haiz.
Somehow tis is e test for both of us I think. N it tough at times cos both of us hve to schedule out our time to meet. We might not meet tat often But hope we can meet more often. I wil miss him a lot. N miss my frenz tat has a lot of memories together.
Hope tis 8 mths I can spend more time wit them. Seriously, I dun wan to leave. But if my parent wants to, I Hve to tag along too. :( can time pass slower, So tat I can spend more time wit my frenz?

Happy days!

2010-10-02T12:46:00.000+08:00

It's been So long since I blog. :)
Hmmm. It's been a busy mth for me especially at work. Receive stock, pack stock, sales target. All abt stock stock stock! Never ending. :( anyway, i'll stop talking abt tis.
Hmmm. On thurs, wake up at 7 for e stupid products training at raffles city. N it's my off day. -.- .It end abt 10 plus, then me n my colleagues went back to our boutique. We bought mac breakfast. Then I was talking to them while waiting for e time to pass n meeting angela n 9 west ex colleagues. Haha. Met up wit angela at abt 1.45 I think. Then we went to cine to shop for clothes. Haha. Then amir n hong Mei came n we bought 'the other guys' movie tickets. Zach was late. Heard hong Mei said he slip off Frm wet floor cos of raining. Hmmm. We wait for him at koufu, But they wan to eat something else. -.- After he reach, they went to mac n eat. I jus buy oreo mcflurry to eat. After eating, we went to watch our movie. E show was super hilarious. Haha. After e show, we went to mini toons to buy blue alien for angela cos she asking him to buy. Haha. In e end, he also bought things for amir n me. :) then after tat we went to play pool. Haha. Amir was a gd player sia. Win So many matches. Lol. Tat stupid zach keep laughing at me when I played wrongly. -.- after our pool games, we went to take neo prints. Haha. Super fun! Haha. Abt 9 plus shan n steph came to join us for dinner n sing k. Haha. When we abt to eat finish, xinyu came to join us n sing k. :) But amir got to go off early.
After tat we went to kbox But it full. We went to scape's kbox instead. E room was quite big. N e chairs is quite different too. Haha. We sing along n drink beer together. Angela drank quite a lot, n I think she's drunk already. Lol. N all of us was crazy too. Haha. We drink, talk, laugh. LOL! Then after kbox, zach sent us home. Haha. He So poor thing, always get some hits by angela. Haha. End of thurs.
Yesterday, went to work in e afternoon. After work was abt to meet my frenz But 1 of my fren last min cannot come. Then my e other fren said she got no mood to go. -.- i'm super pissed! :@ But in e end we still go there n her fren. Hmmm. But it quite pissed again. Keep on moving to other places. -.- in e end, we stay at SJ. N they leave alone at dancing floor. Wth! Nvm. Dance until abt 3 plus then we went back home. Super tired n slept at 4 plus. N I still wake up So early. :(
Tat's e end of my post. Wil update soon! :)

Stressful mth!

2010-09-17T09:12:00.000+08:00

Tis whole mth has been my busiest n stressful at my work. Hmmm. Cos 1 of my colleague went back to china already, n she wont be back anymore. Somehow I miss her already. N now i've So much responsibility to carry. Haiz. It not easy cos I'm So called e senior over there. N I do more things than before. :( hmmm. Now I know taking a responsibility is not tat easy. It kinda tough. :( before tis, I thought of quitting. But I thank God I didnt quit at tat time cos my fren told me their side not tat gd le.
Hmmm. I've been thinking all tis while, wat do I mean to all of ya? Somehow it hit my mind So hard. Esp those tat i'm close wit. Hmmm. N now I know allk guys r e same. They jus play ard your feelings. Even if u do So much for them, they wil not appreciate it. How sad is it uh. I really dun know wat to do. Y all guys always must wait till u lost tat person then u wan to get it back. Always like to play ard outside n nvr be serious to another half of yours. Wat if we wont be back anymore? Wil u regret it or u jus ignore it? Hmmm. Forget it. Thinking So much isn't gd for me too. I'll jus let it be.
Tat's all for my post. Wil be update soon.

Cruise cruise cruise!

2010-08-13T16:31:00.000+08:00

Went to cruise on wed night. We went to harbourfront cruise centre to check in. After we hve check in n other stuffs, we went to our hotel rooms before we went for our dinner. Wow! E balcony class's room is super big n comfy. =D at abt 9 plus, we went for our buffet dinner. Haha. After tat we went to our room n rest for awhile. After we went to their celebrity disco for some drinks. We drank a few glasses of martell mixed wit coke. N it still left 3/4 of it. -.- then we went back to our room n rest.
Day 2:
We slept until 11 plus. But we went out at 2 plus whereby our free breakfast n lunch hve finish. We went to blue lagoon n hve our lunch. It cost us SGD82. Omg! Super expensive sia! After we went back to our room n rest. Abt 4 plus, we went to swim. Haha. I'm not really swim, jus play wit water. LOL! Hmmm. We played e circular thingy, dun know wat is it called. But it super fun. We played quite a number of times already. Haha. After they wan to sun tan. -.- I covered my whole body except my legs. Haha. Ard 7 plus then we went to our room m change before head for our dinner. We went to a western restaurant. Must wear formal sia. Lol. I called light cream of fresh 'broccoli', it quite nice. I called loin beef for my main course. It super hard sia. Hard to chew. :( should hve told them to cook rare instead. Hmmm. My dessert was vienness delight. It sure nice. So smooth. Hehe. Hmmm. After our dinner, we went outside n take some photos wit some sea views before we head for our leftover martell. We drank quite a lot cos we hve to drink finish e whole bottle sia. :( ard e third cup, I should hve stop already cos I know my limit of drinking but because it still left quite a lot So I hve to drink. :( I ran to e toilet quite a lot of times. N for my last cup, I really drunk already. I went to e toilet for quite some time. Then my fren went in to help me. After some massage, I vomit 3 times. N all my foods vomited out also. :( it was terrible of getting drunk. Nxt time I dun wan to drink too much already lo. Hmmm. After tat my fren carry me back to our room. I was totally cannot take it. N I sleep through e night. Haha. Woke up at 8 plus or 9 then I went to e balcony n played fren's iphone games. Haha. Something weird happened. My fren confessed love to me sia. Super ps ttm! Haha. But I still not ready yet. Lol. Hmmm. Ard 12. We went to pay our outstanding bills before we leave. Then we went to pastamania for our brunch cos we were really very hungry. Lol. N now i'm at lucky plaza waiting for my fren to and. Cos i'm celebrating my frens birthday today. I'm too lazy to go back. Haha. Tat's all for my cruise trip. I wanna another trip again. But only can go nxt yr. Cos Frm tis mth till dec is sales period. Cant be able to take leave. :( Nvm. Can save more money n bring my mum along too. :)

Was kinda upset abt it

2010-07-21T18:45:00.000+08:00

I thought I told ya everything, u wil encourage me but in e end u said all those words to hurt me. :( it kinda upset u know. Y cant u understand me? I do So much things jus to be place in your heart, But eventually i'm not. In tat case, if one more time I heard tat Frm ya, I wil do as your wish. I wil not hesitate. Dun blame me cos u hve hurt me to e limit I hve for ya. Dun regret wat u say, n dun regret wat I wil do. Dun say I nvr give u any chance. Btw, if I would do all those things, u might not even know. Since u yourself also do tat, then I myself also can do tat. Every chances I give, ended up u hurt me deeply. :(

happening mths!!!

2010-07-15T08:58:00.002+08:00

it's been quite awhile since i blog a post. haha.. i've busy with my own stuff n work.. =(( getting more n more tougher each day.. hard times is going to come so soon.. but it ok cos hard time brings forth promotion.. =DD

a lot of things tat i feel deeply in my heart but i jus dun know how to express out.. though i may felt so happy outside of me, but inside of me is so much different. though i mayb weak inside, but i know God wil be able to strengthen me n heal my hurts tat i hve. it's pretty amazing tat how God has really done in my faamily. my bro n dad start to go to church alrdy.. PTL!! God is always so faithful though we always so faithless towards Him at times..

so much things to tslk abt thing tat happened tis few wks.. my heart nvr felt so heavy before .. mayb is because of u.. though i know i'm nt e one for u, but i still hve feelings for u. but tis feelings start to lessen a lot.. it's tie to get over it mayb.. haiz..

btw, jus celebrated kaisheng's birthday ytd. haha.. Happy 20th birthday to u uh.. lols.. it quite fun toning wit them.. singing worship songs tgt wit my cg members, playing card wit them. though it' been a long time since we gather again, but e fellowship was gd. =D

i.m awaiting for nxt mth to com.. cruise cruise cruise.. it's my first time going wit my frenz.. so excited.. =D it's gonna be a relaxing n exciting trip.. =D mayb it's a gd thing. i can put down everything n jus hve fun.. whee!!!

tat's all for e post. will update soon hehe..

Past 6 mths of my life.

2010-06-30T18:04:00.000+08:00

Half a yr has gone. So many things had happened. Happy, sad, disappointed n more. Thinking wat hve I really done, n do I really change to e better or to e worst. Haiz. I know there r things tat I know I shouldn't continued but jus cant bear to give up. I should hve affirm my stand. I thought tat someone know everything abt it n hope to see some changes but it seems nothing hve change at all. It still remain e same. Nvm. I know wat I mean to ya. I wil fulfill wat u wish me to do. Thanx for letting me know e answer indirectly.
Something tat make me happy is i'm going to cruise tis coming aug. Whee! Finally I can get to go on holiday le. Woohoo! It time for me to relax already. :) cant wait for e day to come.

I'll let it go

2010-03-26T11:19:00.000+08:00

I've been waiting, waiting n waiting. But e answer I get is always I could expected it. Haiz. I dun wan to wait anymore. I'm tired. I do so much things n I realise i'm jus e willing party. Since he doesnt care, then y should I care. Since i'm not part of his life, then I rather end it. I'm asking for trouble where I know they wil be no ending for us yet I still be there for him. I know i'm silly n foolish of doing all tis.
Although there is a few guys out there but my heart is tired. Need some time to let my wounds be heal. I trust Him who wil be able to strengthen me through storms n valleys. He is really an almighty God. :) jiayou janice loh Mei juan. U can do it de. :)

Though it tired but it fun n worth it.

2010-03-21T20:35:00.000+08:00

Yesterday wake up 5.40 in e morning jus for e asia conference sports event. :) then after tat meet my cg members at tamp control then we traveled down to NIE. :) after we reached there, we went to register. Nvr thought of playing de but they lack of players so I joined in lo. :) I enjoyed e game though it raining. Lol. Hmmm. Then we went to rest awhile n some were bathing. Then we went to NTU n eat. :) n hve some gals talk wit e tertiary members. Haha. Our secret. Lol. Hmmm. Then we took e shuttle bus to expo, though we wanted to go orchard but it late already. Hmmm. We hve a peaceful sleep throughout e journey. :) then went for service after went to pasir ris. Both our fren celebrate their birthday. Lol. I went to buy present at e veri last min cos I've thinking wat to buy for him for a veri long time. Haha. Hmmm. Then we went seperate ways. I went there but I felt kinda weird cos most of them I dun really know. :( hmmm. But I get to know his army frenz. Haha. They quite friendly. :) hmmm. My fren ps me at first, after tat she said she wil be coming. If not I wil be going early le. Then when she came, it abt 12 le. Then it time to cut cake le. :) happy 21st birthday. Lol. Hmmm. Then after tat we outside n eat n slack. Lol. Hve some 'drinks' there. Hehe. He come n talked to us for awhile after tat. When we abt to leave, he asked us to play mahjong. Lol. Then we played lo. Tat 1 whole round kinda slow. We played until almost 3am then end 1 round. Lol. Then his fren drive us home. :)thank you. Though it's a bit tired but I love it cos it worth it. :)

Feel so loved. :)

2010-03-10T10:03:00.000+08:00

I wanna thanks all my frenz n my cg members for celebrating my birthday. Though some of them hve to celebrate belated birthday but I appreciate it. :) hmmm. N thanks for all e presents tat u all give. Especially my brother. Though he did not hve money to buy it but he know it's my birthday on mon, n he bought me a diamond pendant for me. I feel so touched. Though we did not see each other for nearly 7 yrs but his care for me nvr fails. Got 1 thing I feel so touched by him. He says tat he wil protect me n if my future bf treats me bad, he wil help me out. Haha. Though it a bit weird, but I can feel it deeply.
Hmmm. But I hve a news to tell all of ya. Dun know is it a gd news or a bad news. Hmmm. I might not be in singapore after 5-6 yrs time. My brother wil be go back to canada at e end of tis yr. He said he wil bring us there after 5-6 yrs time. E news has jus gone 2 yrs ago cos of some problem, but it came back again. Hmmm. It means I hve to leave my most memorable place n all my frenz. :( though it quite sad, but I know it for my own gd ba I guess so.

A veri veri gd gd news n a great present.

2010-03-05T18:16:00.000+08:00

Yeah! My brother is coming back to singapore on my birthday. :) it is really an unexpected present for me. Hehe. Like wat I hve said in e past few posts, I wanted a present which I wont expected it. N it really happened. I really really thank God for tat. He is an almighty God tat nvr fails to fulfill wat u wan.
No matter wat wil happened to him when he come back to singapore, as long as he can come safe n sound, we wil be glad. :) brother, we wil wait for your return. :)

Excited for my birthday celebration. :)

2010-03-02T19:46:00.000+08:00

6 more days to my birthday celebration. Really excited for it man! Got 4 days to celebrate wit different frenz. Hehe. Cool eh. It gonna be a great wk. :)
Even if there is unhappy stuff, wit all of u by my side i'm happy already. :) Thanx frenz! U guys rock! Haha.
Mayb it time to put down e unhappy past ba. I've got much more better things to do than thinking of all tis. It really take time to heal my wounds tat has hurt for quite a long time.

Even if someone dun appreciate me, there is still ppl out there appreciate me.

2010-02-24T09:27:00.000+08:00

Hmmm. Tis 2 wks something strange happened. Haha. Hmmm. Where shall I start? Eh. I should say got one guy who is abt 1 or 2 yrs younger than me like me sia. OMG! Feel so weird lo. -.-
Hmmm. Another happy thing is someone treating me dinner n ktv on my birthday. Hehe. Oh so nice. :) really appreciate it yeah. Not like someone, dun even know how to appreciate me, only know how to take advantage of me only. Humph. Nvm. Even if someone dun appreciate it, there is still ppl out there appreciate it. Mayb tis coming sun I May know e answer by myself le ba. Haiz. Y always u e one who make me sad, when all I waiting for u to make me happy? It has been quite a long time le, yet all I get is nothing Frm u. Haiz. Sometimes it totally hurt my heart deeply whenever others treat me well but all I was thinking y e person is not ya?

A veri special day for me.

2010-02-16T20:41:00.001+08:00

Hmmm. Started working on e second day of chinese new yr. So Sian lo. -.-Haiz. Nvm. One more wk to a veri special day. Hmmm. I dun know I should be happy or sad. It stir up my thinking at times. Haiz. Nvm. Even if it turn out to be sad, I hve already knew it.
N abt 2 more wks to my 21st birthday. Hehe. I was thinking how to celebrate my birthday since last yr nov. LOL! Hmmm. To me, I jus wan a simple birthday celebration wit a birthday cake tat write 21 on it. :) hmmm. N a special present which I might not be expected it. :-D
Lastly, jus wanna be alone sometimes. It seems like is better. Hmmm. Mayb go out wit my closest frenz. Hehe.

Hope everything wil be alright.

2010-02-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

Haiz. Recently a lot of things happened. Something had happened to my brother. Though we may not be tat close but no matter wat happened, he is still my brother. Really hope everything wil be fine for him. Really Thanx some of my frenz for your care n concern.
Really thank God for everything tat he has done for him. Hope when he return back to singapore, he wil change. :)
Tis few days really change my thinking of life. Mayb tis is wat life is all about. He has already planned everything for us tat we nvr know it at all.
Though life is hard, but I believe as we keep moving on, nothing is impossible. :)

it is such a blessing wk =)

2009-12-13T21:04:00.002+08:00

tis wk is such a blessing wk for me n a busy wk for me too.. cos christmas is coming, busy working till late hrs.. =(

i reaali thank God for blessing such a great mum in my life.. no matter how tight our financial is, she wil still bless wit things tat i always wanted to hve.. clothes, bags n lots of things.. it makes me think of one sentence, "u can give without loving, but u cant love without giving anything" wow!!

last wed was a veri tiring day for me.. cos there is a card member event going on at my work place.. n it realli veri veri busy.. =( me, stella n angela was busy serving customers but yet e customer always try n try but nt buying any shoes.. haiz.. after everything, me n angela took cab hm cos it was almost midnight alrdy.. then we reach ard 12 plus midnight.. when i reach hm, i saw a christmas present on my computer table.. then i go in n ask my mum who christmas present is this? she said she bought for me.. it was so touched can.. lol.. although it jus a box of ferrero roche, but to me it frm a sincerity of her heart.. Amazing eh!! =D

wat i was touched was even if she nvr celebrate christmas, but yet she knows christmas is a time of giving n spread love to their love ones.. how amazing it is.. if my mum can think of tat, y cant we ourselves start to giving to our love ones.. =) ppl, it time to start giving=)

it 12 more days to christmas.. woohoo!!

about my life

2009-12-06T21:17:00.003+08:00

sorry ppl.. it been ages since i post.. but i try to update more of my life.. =)

hmmm.. quite a lot of things going on.. where shall i start frm? hmmm.. i hve been busy working tis few wks n mths.. quite a lot of things to do eh especially christmas is coming.. =(

recently met a fren at my work place.. at first didnt realli know J well.. after my first wk of work, we started to talk to each other.. found out tat J also same church as me.. lol.. then we talked a lot of stuffs.. quite nice talking to J. =) but after a few days, i dun know wat happened to both of us, we didnt talked to each other, ask J but nvr say anything.. haiz.. till now i still dun know wat had gone wrong.. did i do anything? i dun know.. haiz.. but J realli leave a gd impression to me.. so called a happy-go-lucky person.. thanx for being a great fren of mine tis few days though we barely talk nowadays..

hmmm.. i hve received a gd comments frm a customer. wow!! it realli veri blessed. it realli worth of serving so hard n worn out.. =)

n recently quite a few frenz coming to my church.. wow!! it's amazing.. jus like wat xian bi say, if u live like Him, even when u did nt told anyone u r a christian they wil definitely feel it.. =) hope they can integrate asap.. =)

hmmm.. now is alrdy dec.. wow!! so fast it has come to e last mth of e yr.. had been thinking abt how my life change. mayb there r some things tat i've experienced it too deeply tat my feeling getting more n more numb alrdy.. sometimes i was thinking wat i realli wan, i realli dun know.. asking myself wat is my first priority in life? is it God? relationship? friendship? or some other things? God realli remind me wat is e most impt things to me.. yes.. without Him, i would hve given up long ago.. thank for all e frenz n Him who strengthen me up.. it's a tough time, but like wat royston said, tough time dun last, tough man last.. nxt year shall be a great yr ahead.. =) jiayou jiayou jiayou!!
hmmm.. i think tat's all alrdy ba.. haha.. wil update asap..

2009-09-30T15:26:00.003+08:00

gt a good news to tell!!!

i finally gt a gd job good pay..

it really so much flexible than before..

n e pay is higher than before.. =)

i really thank God for provision n guidance..

tis Word is really true, 'u reap wat u sow in return'

i felt really blessed..

n one more gd thing is my manager is also a christian too..

WOW!! tis is e first time i met a christian manager. wahaha!!

mayb it's time for me to focus on my family, god n my job..

i believe God really showed me e right path to walk..

n god really faithful to us in watever we do.

even if we make mistakes, he still loves us n cares for us..

i wil jiayou nt jus for ppl ard me n for God alone.

there's a song really veri meaningful.

Because of You

because of you, i was born again

because of you, i'm ransomed by your grace

because of you, my heart has found a home

a refuge for my soul.

because of you, sins are washed away

because of you, Heaven knows my name

because of you, i can live again

you've broken every chain.

unfailing love, so unreserved,

you gave yourself on calvary,

and now i stand forever free,

my saviour rescued me.

because of you, the weak say i am strong

because of you, the broken hve a song

because of you, there's no need to fear

hope steadfast ever sure.

let heaven be open

our God is unshaken

we worship christ risen high above

let heaven be open

all kingdoms all nations

declare that you are God.

finally!!!

2009-09-17T15:42:00.003+08:00

it been a mth plus since i blog.. lol..

a lot of gd things n sad things happened..

i shall start frm e gd n happy things ba..

i finally gt into my dream ministry, nursery!! yea!!

it was so much fun when i went to serve for e first time..

e babies n e kids there was so cute..

some like to play alone, some like to ppl to play wit them..

maybe is my first time handle so many children ba.

dun know wat to do when babies cry. =(

but i wil do better nxt time.. =)

hmmm.. sad things.. i dun know wat to say..

mayb i start frm tis..

someone saying tis before, " time wil see through a person true heart"

it indeed true enough.

ppl may nt know y i wrote tis, but someone do know wat it mean..

sometimes i felt i really being a fool or i jus pretend nt to care abt e surrounding.

i myself know tat i did such a stupid thing in my whole entire life yet i stil continue to choose being a fool??

y? wat happened to me?

now then i realised wat is e most important things in my life..

family first, friends second, n lastly relationship.

n throught tis whole year, all i know who is more important, n who shld i give up on..

family support me, teach me, help me whenever i in need of help..

n there r really true frenz ard me tat i really cherish them a lot.

they really help me without any hesitating..

i know who is my true frenz, who is nt..

tis is wat i feel, dont mean any harm..

relationship? do i need tat? i asked myself so many times..

mayb it is bcos of my past relationship.

i know there is a lot of my frenz asked me, y still dun wan to get into another relationship?

y dun wan to accept someone else?

i asked myself n my heart had given me an answer.

mayb i start to lost trust on guys ba..

although there a lot of opportunity out there, but i jus dun even care a single bit.

mayb it still need time to heal my wound ba..

let me hve some time to regain my trust can?

n i really wanna thanx some ppl who is alway wit me especialy my cg..

i really thanx all my frenz n cg who had encouraging me al tis while..

it so tough in my life jouney, but with all of ur encouragement, i'll be able to continue to move on..

i wil jiayou all e way to e end..

n lastly, i wan my Osaka trip!! =P

2009-07-02T20:36:00.002+08:00

it been a mth plus since i blog it.. partially is i'm lazy to blog, e other thing is i dun know wat to blog sometimes.

last mth went for 5 wks Song of Solomon bible study, i felt tat after every bible study is a test for me.

it realli test my faith towards God n my love towards God.

i realli dun know wat is my mind thinking abt.

a lot of things seems nt right for me.

i've been finding job also. although i've found a job but it realli tiring though it is at a 6 star hotel.

there are things i wanted to give up but it seems so tough. now i realised giving up some things is so difficult. it realli need a lot of willingness n courage to do it.

i ask myself wat do i realli wan but i realli dun know. i had been crying everyday when i was abt to slp. i realli dun know wat am i thinking abt.

all my mind was thinking am i realli a fool?

wat do he think of me? wat do i mean to him?

everytime i wanna stop myself thinking of him, but i jus cant.

all i jus wan a normal love, is tat so difficult?

hve i nt do anything for him?

watever i do, he jus dun appreciate it.

how i wish i didnt started it. it so difficult to end.

n all i wan is now is jus work n church then study, nth else.

wil i be able to stay strong for my own will?

i shall see how it goes ba.. =(

2009-05-17T14:34:00.002+08:00

fri

went to work again.. =) i meet joey, min qi's fren to go work tgt. reached there quite early then i went to buy cheese curry chicken. i ate it while waiting for her. hehe. then ard 5 plus, she called me n said she missed e station, hve to take back again. lols. asked me to buy bubble tea for her. hehe. then when she reached, we went to mac n buy Mc chicken meal for min qi. hehe..

then after tat, we walked to work. haiz. it still raining. =( went there n slack awhile. then start calling le.. tio a lot of rejection at one of e area. sian.. then no mood to called liao.. wa.. they gt a lot sia.. so gd.. after i change to call other areas as min qi recommend me to at 6***** de.. haha.. then i tried, n it work. although it nt a lot but at least i tried. =) then after tat, we went hm seperately. hehe. joey wait for me after i went to e restroom. thanx.. =)

sat

went to meet angela at her place at 12. n she still eating while i'm alrdy walking to her place le. diao. then i went up to her place.haha. she told me she gave her maggie to her brother. lols. n she cant find her ez-link card. blur rite? lols. haha. she bought a present for evon.. so gd.. haha.. hmmm.. then we took bus 8 to joses place. n bought some drinks n snack at e 'mama' shop. haha.. then we went up to joses house n wait for e rest to come. =)

ard 2, we start plating games. hah. it was fun. after tat, cg started. =) wow.. everything is cool.. ard 4, cg ended. then we went off to 201 there. kaisheng asked me to buy birthday card. but in e end he bought it when i saw him. diao. he went to buy bubble tea. then i went to bakery to bread to eat. then we wait for them to come n we walked to opposite n wit for bus 12 to come. i seems to get younger n younger. all of e frenz guess me 16 or 17. OMG!! so happy.. wahaha.. then after tat bus 12 came. n we reached expo afer few mins. then we walked n talking to e frenz also.. =) eh.. i learning to communicate well wif e new frenz.. =)

went to hall 8 n e svc start le. hehe. it was so cool. gt one song, Great Is Our God, we sing e chorus in korean. haha. so cool.. today is dr Kim Sung Hae frm korea came to our church. wow.. it's been quite a long time since she came to our church. it was realli blessed by her msg.. after tat, svc ended.. =) royston gave some announcement n then we celebrated Evon's birthday. she gt shocked. haha. after tat, alle CGCs n frenz went to conference rm 1 to play games, n we went to expo foodcourt to fellowship.. =)

went to buy food n chatted awhile. after tat, Royston talked to us abt our cg progression. hmmm.. it true indeed. frm first generation till now, realli gt a lot of ppl backslide than staying strong. we realli hve to pray more n fast more to build ourselves up n strengthen every member. haiz.

after tat, they finished their activities, then we went to control station n find them. =) n talked to some of e frenz.. =D after xian bi talked to all e gals in our grp. hmm.. after tat, min qi, angela, kenneth, nicholas grace n me took e train towards joo koon. hehe. kenneth they all dropped down first. after tat is me n angela. haha. we disturbed min qi.. lols =X we went to restroom, then she went to sweet talk n buy bubble tea. haha.. i keep on diturbed her. haha.. =X then we walked seperate ways le.. haha.. n home sweet home. =D

2009-05-13T13:57:00.034+08:00

been slacking tis few days.. =X haha.. but i lazy to blog until now.. lol..

photos taken previously.

nice nice

i look so blur. hahas.

thurs

celebrate mother day in advance wif my grandma also.. ^^ we eat zhu chao.. it nice.. love it esp e chilli crab sauce. it was marvellous.. wahaha.. after tat went back hm..

fri

went to meet joanne at hougang mall.. while waiting for her, i buy magazine to entertain myself. LOL!! hmmm.. strange thing happened. there is this sec sch boy who keep on walk past me n look at me.. my mind was like 'wat is he looking at' in my mind. then after he approached me n jus to asked me am i qiuya? i was like -.-". then i say no n he ran off.. -.- after tat, he brought 2 gals also dun know y. like talking abt e gal whom he think look like me?! lol.. then i keep on msg-ing joanne to come faster n go off quickly after she came. *phew* so weird.

nvm.. after tat we went to ajisen to eat ramen.. it was her first time eating at ajisen. OMG!! haha.. after finished eating abt 3, i went to her house to charge her camera. lol.. her dog scratch me.. =( so pain n still gt scar. :'( after tat, we took cab to bugis. went to C&K to buy shoes. lol.. e price was like OMG!! i saw a wallet there. veri nice. =D after we went to bugis street to look for cardigan n leggings before we went off to cg..

wa.. today cg was gd man.. sharing my testimony. erm.. i always cant hide my emotions. =( lol.. then after tat we hve fruits after cg.. =D nice nice. then we went to rasa 21 to eat our dinner. lol.. i was e last to eat finish as it always me. haha.. ps.. then me n min qi went to interchange n take bus home.. went hm ard 11 plus to 12.. omg!! haha..

sat

i meet joanne 4.15 at tanah merah interchange platform. but she was late.. after tat sth happened again. i was looking at e train tat goin towards changi airport. then i was turning towards one of e doors, there was this guy suddenly smile towards my direction. then i was looking at my side but nobody looking there. then i quickly turned my head towards e other direction. lol.. so weird can. y give me all tis in this month? nxt time i dun look ard liao.. -.-" then after i saw ck, hoi han, charmaine, serene n one of ck's colleague which i forgot her name. sorry. after they wanna come n accompany me to wait for joanne. u see la, everybody wait for u princess.. hahas.. then ard 4.45 she reached le. lol but we r at different side. lol. then we meet when drop off e train. haha.

after tat we went to meet others then we went in for svc as we goin to late soon. lols.. today svc was great. ^^ n e mother's day drama was hilarious n nice. =D didnt able to bring my mum along.. =( nvm.. after svc, we gt anouncement n we celebrate a fake birthday for her. give her a small birthday card n a balloon which i dun know wat it called.lol.. but after tat, we told her we pranked her. haha. we celebrated e real one.. hehe.. they gave her a hello kitty bear n one more thing forgot liao. lol. n i gave her my present for her. haha.. then we went to tm to buy food n pack away to open plaza there n fellowship.. haha.. we played zhong ji mi ma while we were eating. hahas.. those who get it, e forfeit wil hve to turn 5 rounds wif e dance troupe at e open space there. hahaa. 10 rounds for xian bi as wat he said. but e first round is xian bi. haha. so jobie n him go dance. haha. funny lo.. after tat is joses n desmond. lol.. they didnt go to e front but they dance in front of us.. realli admire their dariness. haha.. after our fellowship, we went seperate ways.. n we took bus hm tgt wif e usual ppl.. hehe..

sun

stay at hm e whole day.. haha.. nth to do.. so i keep taking photos.. =)

photos of e day

would i found my happiness?? =X

love me n kiss me.. =X

sweetness in me.. LOL

i love it.. ^^

pretty ma? =X hahas.

sweet?!

Muackies..

twist twist

stare into my eyes. =X

Twist n muack.

edited.

my side view. look emo?!

Sweet ma? =X

twist twist

innocent =P

e silly gal.. LOL

Mon

meet my fren at amk.. we walked ard.. n we went to food court n eat.. after eating, we went to walked ard again.. haha.. we walked inside Fair Price. haha.. bought a facial foam.. lols.. ard 9 plus, we went hm le.. after i reached hm, i took some photos before i went to change. hahas..

photos of e day

tis e birthday present tat my cg gave.

oops.. =X

nice?

oopsy.. =X

tue

went to dhoby ghaut n meet min qi n her frenz. working at her place. =) first day still nt bad la.. gt 8 pieces. haha.. then after work, we went hm liao.. =)

wed

went to work again. goin there myself.. =) today a bit slack. only do 3. =X e rejection realli a lot lo.. sian.. after tat, went to meet fiona, rei n joanne.. haha.. we went to SJPS. hehe.. we go to 3 different places after one of e shop closed. e last stop we go is dragonfly. haha.. we saw darren e superstar there. OMG!! he look quite gd in person eh.. haha.. n something happened eh.. gt 1 guy frm e second place to e third place, keep wanna fnd us.. -.- say wanna make frenz but e drinks we must share e cost.. -.- nvm.. we jus hack care him n we talked our own things. then my fren asked me y guys always come n find gals here? n y guys like to touch here n there? n i jus replied respectively. over there is like tat de.. everyone is veri open.. e nxt thing is guys come here to find gal is either because he is frm NS n need to find gals or he is keen to find a gal for himself.. tat's it..

n ard 5 plus in e morning, then we went off to e bus stop n wait for e first bus. slp in e bus. lol. n they said wanna go to top one ktv. i was like @@. haha.. but i say ok. cos i still can manage to wake up. but after i set my alarm clock, ard 9.30 it rings. then i wake up n saw rei's msg n said e ktv cancelled le. then ard 12 plus, my fren called me n tell me tat we watching movie. i said ok cos previously she told me. hmmm.. then after tat, she msg me n said movie, dinner n k. i was like huh. i thought dun hve. then after tat rei msg me n said we meet 3.30 at hawer bus stop but she didnt tell me. =( then i went to bathe n change. ard 3 plus i went out, then i saw my mum n she bought lunch for me n asked me to eat but i meet them at 3.30. nvm. i told her i meet 3.45 instead. n then i eat until 3.35 n then i went off to meet rei. lols. she asked me to find her at her stall near dessert shop. i was blur. haha. i saw her le. then we wait for fiona n joanna again.. lols.. n we gonna late for our movie le.. haiz.. then we change to watch movie at cineleisure 5.20. watched e angels n demons. it quite interesting anyway.. hehe..

then we went off to chinatown n meet our frenz to sing k. lols.. we eat our dinner there also.. haha.. ard 12 plus, we went to took e last bus. haha. reached hm almost 1am. lols. so tiring.

tue (continuing)

meet there at harbourfront to search for jobs before i went to meet min qi. while searching, we went to e roof top de sitting area there n we took some photos.

photos of e day (tue)

shu zhen, me n min ling

min ling n me

shu zhen n min ling

shu zhen n me

e 3 of us..

after tat we went to plaza sing to search for jobs too.. at first shu zhen hesitated to go de, but in e end she go because of min ling. hahas. then ard 5 i went to meet min qi n her frenz as i hve written on e top. haha..

2009-05-06T22:03:00.003+08:00

haven been update my blog.. cos went hm veri late n lazy to update.. =X haha..

SUN - went to yishun wif my fren. hve my lunch n dinner there. haiz.. bad news cos my agent said i dun need to work anymore.. =( hmmm.. then after tat walked ard.. LOL.. ard 6 plus i went off liao.. dun wanna go hm, then i met up pei pei.. ssssooo long nvr see her le.. we chatted a lot.. =D after tat we called ryan to meet up too.. then he said after work then come n find us.. hahas..

after tat, ard 10 plus he reached le.. we actually wanted to walked to e roti prata shop to eat but closed liao.. -.- then no choice we walked to e hawker centre n eat.. hahas.. li yuan came down n meet us also.. =) they called hao jian n chao guo tiao to eat. i'm nt hungry so i didnt eat.. lol.. then we chatted a lot there until 12 plus.. OMG!! haha..

then we walked back hm.. thanx for sending me hm.. he veri funny.. dun know at e back of my house there has alrdy finished renovate le.. haha.. then i bring him for a tour there n told him i always came back hm frm there. n he told me tat our area gt molester/rapist. OMG!! i still dun know.. -.- nxt time dun walk there alone liao.. sian.. meet up again yea?? hehe..

Mon - went to my office in e morning to take my pay n off i go.. sian.. after taking pay, i walked to suntec n deposit my money n send my money to my frenz.. sian.. after tat i took bus 70 to paya lebar n pay my bills.. -.- half of it gone.. :'( after tat, dun know where to go then i went hm lo.. haiz.. my father at hm.. then i tell him nt working liao lo.. n told my mum also after she came back hm.. =(

hmmm.. after tat, i went out to meet my frenz for dinner at JP. LOL.. went to japanese restaurant n ate ramen. eat e same old thing.. hahas.. after tat, they went to arcade n play games.. wa liao.. sian 1/2. lol.. after tat, walked ard then abt 9 plus, then i went hm liao.. nvm.. gt magazine to read.. hahas..

Tue - went to tamp wif fiona.. we went to ikea as i promise her i wil treat her eat. lol.. while we eating, she suddenly asked me wil i let a guy wooing me? i was like stun.. omg. i only met him 2 times only.. diao.. but in e end i say no cos i still nt ready for another one yet. gotta hve my main purpose done first. ps wor.. hmmm.. then ard 11 plus brfore 12 am then we reached hm.. lol..

Today - went out meet my fren at JP instead. =X went to hve my dinner wif my fren.. then we walked ard for awhile then abt 8 then i go off liao.. haiz.. my mind is whirling.. dun know wat to do le.. =(

2009-05-02T09:56:00.006+08:00

ytd i went out wif my frenz to eat tian tian huo guo wif bbq at bugis.. i make 2 new frenz, mag n ck. haha.. they were veri friendly n nice.. we ate until 7.30 then we go off le..

Me n ck

after tat, ck went hm cos he gt a band tonight. WOW!! so cool.. haha.. then we 3 gals went to plaza sing.. Mag bought her clothes there. =D after tat, we thought of watching movies but all e seats left front row only.. =( sian de lo.. nvm.. after tat we went to starbucks n slack.. buy drinks n hve our girls talk there.. HAHA!! our topic was SO funny la.. n mag also gt shocked by wat we said.. n it realli true for wat we said.. keep it a secret eh.. =D

after tat, we went to plaza sing carrefour cos mag wan to buy lime n make juice.. yea i like lime juice too.. it's simply awesome to me.. haha.. i think i like sour stuffs.. it kinda shiok. LOL. (but i'm nt pregnant) so dun imagine things eh.. haha..

after we went to restroom before we end our day. n we taking photos in e restroom.. haha..

photos of e day

the 3 emo gals =X

me, fiona n mag.

the 3 hot babes =X (nt my idea) haha.

n then we went seperate ways. i took bus wif fiona. hehe.. edited e photos in e bus using my phone. cool rite? hahas.. after we reached our place, we chatted frm e bus stop to her block n we still talking non stop. haha. until 12 plus we still talked.. =X oops. n my mum hve to come down n search for me.. =X sorry..

gal, dun worry.. hve faith in urself.. i believe tat wat u desire, God know abt it.. everyone hve a purpose in life. mayb tis is wat God has planned for u. it also can treat it as a 'mission trip' too. it realli amazine whereby u can spread e gospel to e tourists. i believe God wil guide u e way.. JIAYOU!! n dun worry abt ur job. jus do ur best. n rmb wat i said,u gt to ask frm them every single details. cos it realli a big responsible.. n as for her, try to communicate wif her parents. cos all she wan is jus her parent love nt bcos of her needs for tat area. u know wat i mean. u r e only one tat can help her. n i believe u can. through my social circle, i know all these. it can be easy n hard to handle. but i believe her parent can change her heart.

2009-04-30T13:38:00.002+08:00

sorry for nt upating my blog. been busy working n came hm late. =X on sun, i went for my ex ite classmate's wedding.. haha.. WOW!! so many of my frenz married alrdy. OMG!! so fast lo.. some gt babies alrdy. haha. cant imagine lo.. i wonder when wil be my big day?? haha.. still longgg way to go lo.. LOL!! gt to make a stand for God first before finding my right partner ba.. haha..

tis few days working n working, find it getting tougher n tougher. nth seems to do it right for me. haiz. gt to realli buck up before e deadline. =( mayb i nt suit tat job ba.. =( gt to lookout for other job soon..

anyway, i jus wanna clear some of my debts, then i wil feel much relieved. other than tat, i think i find a stable job ba. then save money to further my studies. nth much le ba.

2009-04-26T19:48:00.002+08:00

sorry for nt been updating my blog. been busy for work. hmmm.. work is getting more n more stress, more n more things coming up. now then i know work as a PA is nt as easy. haha. i must JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!

ytd only slept for a few hrs then went for cg le. wa. it was realli amazing. woohoo~ after tat, we hve our donuts. =) haha. after eating, we went to take bus for svc. hehe. e svc was great. e presence of God was WOW!! haha.. yea. 2 of hoi han's frenz went down for altar call. =) welcome!!

after tat we went to whitesand for fellowship. =) thanx joanne for treating me. =) after fellowship, me n joanne bought our drinks n wait for e CGCs to finish their meeting then we go take bus tgt. after tat, only me, ks, joanne took e same bus home.. lol.. after tat, i missed my stop. -.- i walked hm in e end. =(

2009-04-17T21:03:00.003+08:00

today is my first day of work. haha.. starting a bit blur n confusing. slowly can adapt le.. =) wa.. PA realli gt lot of things to do lo.. =( know many colleagues. they r so funny n nice to hang out.. haha.. hope i can do it better n better. =D

finished work at 5. then went hm to wait for starhub ppl to come. oh ya. sth gd tat happened. ytd, there's a starhub guy came to my house. he told me tat our block has been selected to hve free installation of SCV. woohoo!! so gd la. haha.. n e price of e channels is only half price. WOW!! amazing eh.. haha..n jus now gt ppl come n installed for me le.. yea.. can watch e channel i wan.. =D

2009-04-15T22:18:00.002+08:00

jus now went out wif huiyi n bee ling.. we meet at orchard control station to go far east plaza to look for their clothes. haha. we went to subway n hve our brunch there. after finished eating, we went to walked ard far east le.. haha.. so funny. i become their '经纪人' lol. haha.. but they bought a lot lo.. haha.. at first bee ling wanted to buy t-shirt in e end she bought dresses.. lols.. they bought almost e same shoes. haha.

after tat we took bus 7 to bugis cos they wanna look for t-shirts n cardigan.. haha.. in e end they bough a same dress diff colours n huiyi bought a cardigan. hehe.. after tat, they went down to buy t-shirts. wa.. they realli buy a lot of t-shirts. haha.. they realli spent a lot lo.. btw, they look more like 'couple' le. haha.. i also bought a dress. hehe.

after tat, we went to mac n slack for awhile cos they wanna buy anymore le. spent ard 100 for clothes n shoes. haha. ard 9 plus then we go hm.. lols.. might be meeting on fri or sun again. watching 17 again.. woohoo~~

2009-04-14T21:55:00.005+08:00

ytd went to clarke quay wif min ling n zhi mei. bee ling cannot come.. =( we meet at raffles place then we go Lau Pa Sat. they eat their dinner there but i nt hungry. haha..

after finished eating, we went to clarke quay to look for p** wif karaoke. but we cant find any cos nt veri familiar wif tat place. -.-

photos of e day

taken at e bridge there. e view is WOW!! ^^

taken wif e sea view. woo~ so romantic can??

after tat, we went to a restaurant called Hooters. it quite a nice place. =) we ordered some food n drinks. =D

Volka wif orange.

curly fries wif cheese.

we chatted while we were eating.. chat abt lots of stuffs. haha.. our secrets eh? =X hahas. then ard 11 plus, we abt to go then we went restroom. min ling so fuuny la her face n body.. u see e pictures n u wil know..

tis is after min ling drink. haha. SO red!!

after tat, we walked to clarke quay station as it was quite late alrdy. thank God we able to take train hm.. Phew!! went hm ard 12 plus. wow!! get changed n slp le.. hve an enjoyable day.. =D must meet up again!!

2009-04-12T23:40:00.008+08:00

isn't tat sweet uh? =x

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KENNETH!!

ytd went for svc. brought Charmaine n christina to service.. yea yea.. e easter drama was great man.. woohoo.. wow!! i heard many of e frenz frm our cg go down for altar call.. wow!! Praise e Lord!! i realli hope one day she wil get saved in e name of Jesus.. Hallelujah!! after tat, we went to boat quay de 'zhu chao' n eat. haha.. it was great fellowship wif them.. haha.. after tat we celebrate kenneth birthday.. his birthday card n birthday gift was quite cool la.. all credits to Kaisheng.. *claps* haha..

e birthday boy, kenneth. =)

after tat, went hm n get changed.. use com until 2 plus.. send feedback.. ^^ today i woke up at 9 plus jus to give a morning to all e CGCs. lol.. but..all having slping mode except min qi n kaisheng picked up e phone. haha. kaisheng been awaken by me.. haha.. ps wor.. nt my fault.. tsk tsk. haha.. then nt after half an hr, i finally woke up. lol. 11 plus then bathe n changed. went off to work. lols.

reached there le, i do e same thing again. matrking papers, photocopy n scanning.. haha.. is quite bored la but overall is still alright. after my work, i went to tamp n look for Jas. haha.. ate my lunch n dinner. lols. then we thinking to go where shop for sth.. haiz.. *headache* haha. after tat, we went to T1. is nt terminal 1 hor, is Tampines 1. haha. WA!! e shopping centre realli full of ppl.. so crowded la.. haha.. went walked ard frm basement to 4th or 5th floor. lols. level 2 gt a japen shope which sell apparels. WA!! e queue was like goin for concert like tat lo.. cos gt special discount til nxt wk.. lols. after tat, we bought bubble tea frm each a cup. =) btw, there is a lot of new restaurants there wor.. some hve quite a reasonable price wor.. cool eh.. haha.. after we went seperate ways le..

took bus 65 hm.. haha.. watched e campus superstar. lols. e last part is a bit weird lo. using tat method to find who is winner. -.-''''

He strengthen my life.

Twist

sweet twist..

When i'm weak, U make me Strong.

Without His strength, i may nt be able to stand up still in front of everyone. sometimes my life hve ups n downs, all i think is shld i give up? but i know n i know He is always there, nvr fail to build me up once again. tis few wks is realli veri stretched to me. feel so tired sometimes, feel so down each day, He knows wat i'm thinking. been crying every single nite when no one knows, where i always hide myself in my bed n cried, sitting in front of my com n think abt some stuffs n i cried. all tis while, without Him i do nt know wat to do.. He has been showing me, guide me but yet sometimes i felt i didnt fulfill wat He realli wan.. my heart realli hurt. nobody knows except Him. been asking myself y i cant jus put down n let it go n walked e path tat He lead. Do i realli care? i do care, i care abt how He think abt wat i do, i care abt how He wan me to be. tell me wat to do??

会呼吸的痛 - 梁静茹

在东京铁塔

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看灯火模仿

坠落的星光

我终於到达

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一个人完成

我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多

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以前我不懂得

未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛

它活在我身上所有角落

哼你爱的歌会痛

看你的信会痛

连沉默也痛

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它流在血液中来回滚动

后悔不贴心会痛

恨不懂你会痛

想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上张扬过哀伤

那是种多么寂寞的倔强

你拆了城墙让我去流浪

在原地等我把自己捆绑

你没说你也会软弱

需要依赖我

我就装不晓得

自由移动

自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛

它活在我身上所有角落

哼你爱的歌会痛

看你的信会痛

连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛

它流在血液中来回滚动

后悔不贴心会痛

恨不懂你会痛

想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了

多爱你就会抱你多紧的

我的微笑都假了

灵魂像飘浮着

你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候

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我越来越像贝壳

怕心被人触碰

你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

2009-04-10T00:25:00.002+08:00

Yeah!! i gt a job le.. working as a PA(personal Assistant) at Great Eastern for an agent. =) cool eh.. haha.. gt 3 mths contract first.. 6.50 per hr.. woohoo.. if everything goes well, i wil be a permanent staff there.. hope everything goes well..

realli thanx Fiona's fren, Melvin intro me tis job.. i wont let u down.. am gonna shine for Him in e marketplace.. Woohoo~~ i realli thank God for Financial blessings in my life.. indeed He is a faithful God, e God of Provider. He realli prosper us in every area of our life.. PTL!!!!!!

to all my frenz tat goin to study in poly.. all e best yea? u can get into poly, u sure hve ability to study even better than before.. jiayou!!! ^^ keep in contacts k?

2009-04-09T00:59:00.002+08:00

today went to PS watch Confessions Of a Shopaholic wif bee ling n min ling cos others nt free n etc.. hmmm.. e show nt tat bad, a bit touching eh.. =) haha.. after tat, we walked ard ps.. my fren frm Great Eastern called me to go for interview.. =) yea yea..

after tat, we went to bugis street cos bee ling wan to look for clothes for her starting of her poly life.. lols.. she bought a t-shirt.. hahas.. then after tat, we went to bugis junction to look ard but found nth.. after tat we went to posb then we go LJS n eat.. cos we veri hungry.. lol.. n we chatted lot of things there. haha.. we was thinking when some of us in poly while some of us was working, wil we hve time to meet each other up? haiz..

after few wks of asking them out, it seems like there are high chances of lost contacts wif each other eh.. haiz.. hope it wont ba.. =) hmmm.. gonna work then after tat save a bit to study private=) n clear up all e debts tat i hve.. i realli thank God for financial blessing. n there r things i shld hve give up alrdy.. gdbye..

2009-04-07T23:52:00.002+08:00

today i went to Top One KTV wif my fren again.. haha.. quite fun eh.. lols.. after tat, we went to MOF to hve our dinner wif her fren.. lol.. so weird n funny la.. but i gt a job frm her fren.. haha.. realli thank God for favor.. hehe.. is a PA at Great Eastern.. hehe.. hope i wil be able to get in.. =) woohoo.. so happy.. ^^

after tat, i went to pasir ris wif my fren to book chalet for their fren's birthday. haha.. then after tat we took bus hm..

2009-04-07T23:40:00.002+08:00

ytd went to chinatown CK building to hve my interview there. it a accounting firm there nt at CK ar. lols.. hmmm.. still hve to wait for calls.. haiz.. nvm.. after i went to kallang n look for bee ling.. lols.. cos veri sian.. know her frenz there. haha.. after they come n talked to me cos nt much customers. hahas..

i sit there till veri sian cos wait for them to go eat dinner n some more it raining. -.- gonna fall asleep soon le.. sian.. then i went to buy magazine to read n spend my time usefully. after i went to eat dinner wif my frenz. lols. but e atmosphere over there was so weird lo.. haiz.. nvm.. after tt went back hm cos it quite late le.. haha..

2009-04-02T17:36:00.002+08:00

i went for morning prayer meeting.. =) realli feel refreshed after praying.. saw qifeng none of his fren after the prayer meeting. i forgot how to spell his name le.. =x haha.. i went to subway n eat my breaskfast there. wanna try.. but no bread only hve wraps.. nvm.. after tat, i dun know where to go as it still so early.. lols.. after i went down to bugis n wait for my frenz.. lols.. we went to Top One KTV. =) it was realli veri fun. haha.. btw, gt my results ytd too.. haiz.. done veri badly for my exams.. nvm.. after oue ktv session, we went to e new shopping centre nxt to bugis street there n take a look.. wow.. it realli big n nice la.. lol..

after tat, they went hm.. i went to riverwalk for bs.. =) it was great man.. haha.. after tat, i went to find my cg members.. hehe.. we went to LJS to eat while joses went to burger king n buy food n eat. lols.. ard 10 plus then reached hm le.. =)

although i feel sad for my results but i realli Thank God for favor n blessings. ytd i send s resume to an audit firm which my teacher recommended me.. n today i gt their call.. goin for interview on mon.. Woohoo~ so excited la.. haha.. i believe tat even if i cant shine for Him in my studies, but i wil be able to shine for Him in e marketplace.. =) truly, He is a faithful God. n He is e God of Provider. realli prosper us in every area of our life.. PTL.. =)

a fun n tiring day

2009-03-29T19:52:00.002+08:00

ytd woke up at 8.30 n get changed to go for zone pm. when i got there, i saw kaisheng.. wa.. he reached at 9.30.. omg!! haha.. then after tat, xinyu reached too.. we went in first to put our bags in e room.. then we went out to wait for e others.. =) we saw mei yan.. so we chatted wif her.. haha.. after tat joses n minqi reached le.. =) then we go in tgt.. hahas.. 10.30 e pm start.. everything was realli great man.. =) e presence of God was there.. ard 1 e prayer meet end. after tat we went to Central's food court n eat our lunch there.

ard 2.30, we take train to expo as we gt nth to do.. we reached there then minqi went for useher while me n ck sitted at e control station staircase n slack.. after kenneth n nicholas reached le.. wa.. they bought chewy juniors.. hehe.. but i dun feel like eating. lols. was quite full eh.. =X after tat, one by one reached le.. lols.. after tat we went in to hall 8. ^^ as usual, e svc start at 5.30. everything was great.. n rev. dr Phil Pringle came to our church again.. woohoo~ haha.. ard 7.30, svc ended..

then we went to pasir ris to fellowship. =) didnt eat my dinner but i wasnt realli hungry too.. lols.. then ard 10 plus, we went to e chalet.. woolala.. haha.. we went there rest for awhile n we start our mahjong game.. =D it fun lo.. haha.. after tat, kaisheng take place when he reached.. lols.. so funny la.. hahas.. ard 2 plus in e morning, felt so tired then i went to slp.. but..i cant slp.. lols. a bit noisy.. haha.. then i watch e video tat we watched tis morning during pm.. it realli veri touching la.. =) after tat, i went to slp again.. haha.. finally i can slp le.. then xian bi they all come back.. n again.. haha.. nvm.. i ignore so nth happened.. but i moved up again as brothers is slping on e lower deck de bed.. lols.. n i finally can slp le.. yipee. haha.. n tat is how i slp until tis morning 8.30.. haha.. n i dun know y i feel so energetic even though i slp so late.. -.-

went off ard 10.45 n reached simei at 11.15. lols..wait for rulan to come.. haha.. then we went to banquet n eat when she arrived.. hehe.. ard 12 plus we finished eating le.. we went to look for e block as we first time go to ppl's house.. haha.. wa.. we looked for so long in e end we walked one big round.. -.- finally we reached e place le.. n i start marking papers.. n e subject is.. chinese.. omg.. i so long didnt touch my chinese le.. haha.. like i go back to my primary sch like tat.. haha.. then i mark mark mark until e time run so fast.. n i finshed work le.. hooray.. ^^ haha.. then i went back hm after tat.. but i dun know y still feel so energetic.. omg.. n tat's all for e day.. =D

2009-03-26T19:10:00.002+08:00

jus now went out wif my fren to plaza sing. we walk ard then after tat thought of goin to wtch movie. then we went to e ticket booth there n check. actually wanted to watch The Unborn de but in e end we went to watch Hotel for Dogs. we go walk ard first n went to buy drinks to e cinema.

after tat, we went in to e cinema le.. after 1 1/2 hrs, e show ended.. it quite nice n funny la.. e dogs is sssssooooo cute.. OMG!! haha.. then after tat we went to Ichiban Sushi n eat.. i ordered beef curry while my fren ordered teppanyaki chicken wif eggs. hahas. dun know wat is it caled. he ate 5 plates of sushi before e food came n i jus eat 2 plates only. hahas. after we ate finished, we went to pay e bills. erm.. something happened.. guess wat.. we hve 7 plates of sushi free wor.. hahas.. e person didnt realise tat lo.. OMG!! tat cost 14.70 wor.. wahaha.. shld i say tat as a blessing?? hahas.. nvm..

after tat, i dun know where to go. then i thought of goin hm in e end. my fren went to chinatown lo. haha. tat's all for e day.. =)

我好想好想放弃！！

2009-03-25T23:24:00.006+08:00

我真的真的不知道你心里要的是什么。我在你心中到底算什么？

我心里好烦好乱！！

当你需要的时候，我都会尽我能力去帮你。

那当我需要你在我身边的时候，你又在哪里？

当我想要见到你的时候，你又在哪里？唉！为什么别人能得到幸福而我

却不能？就算你不能给我我想要的，但至少让我感觉你是在乎我的。我付出这么

多，我却什么回报都没有。别人只

付出一些些，却能得到你对他们的好。难道我真的不值得你为我付出一点点吗？:'(

不要等到有一天我真的放弃，那时后我不会再回头了。

以前我想走的时候，你会挽留我。

现在的你，我感觉你不会。因为你给我的感觉再不像从前一样了。不管你的决定是如

何，我已做好心理准备了。

2009-03-25T22:49:00.015+08:00

today went out wif shu zhen, sophia n zi yun to go Kallang leisure park n find bee ling ocs she working there. when we reach, sophia haven reach yet.. so we took lots of photos before she reach.. after she reached le, we took some photos too before we took bus to Leisure park. hahas..

Photos of e day (not in order. psps) ^^

bee ling n me

we taking at e toilet. it nice. (i mean e renovation. LOL)

it us again. ^^

oops.. cant see shu zhen.. =X

love tis pic lots.. ^^

mirror reflection

mirror reflection of us

mirror reflection of e four of us..

sophia n me

sophia n me.. (who's hand is tat??) hahas

sophia n me again.. ^^

me, shu zhen n zi yun.

me n zi yun

we took it while we waiting for sophia.

after tat we went to look for bee ling.. hahas.. cos e photos nt in order.. psps.. =P hmmm.. we went to chat wif her awhile then look ard e clothes at her shop.. wa.. e clothes is nice n e price is NICE too.. lols.. hahas.. after i saw my fren, chat a little wif him too.. hahas.. cos they worked at e same place.. hahas.. then we went for lunch wif bee ling but bee ling gt to first after she eat finish. hahas. then we went to lok for awhile then we went to walk ard e mall.. but nth much eh.. SO sian de lo.. i realli cant imagine how they worked for so long hrs n so many days..lol. after we went to basement n walked.. haha.. then after i went to Yoguro n buy yoghurt to eat. it nice but e toppings they give is quite little but e yoghurt they give is sssssssooo much. omg.. i'm full by eating tat.. lols.. after they wanted to go hm le. before tat, we went to toilet. haha. then we took a lot of photos there too.. hahas..

after they went off, then i went back to look for bee ling to eat dinner wif her but in e end her dinner haven start yet. i jus went there to chat wif her lo.. buy bubble tea n then i went off to riverwalk for bs.. was gonna late.. msg rulan, n guess wat.. we took e same train.. hahas.. then we dropped down at raffles place n quickly walked to riverwalk. i missed a lot of things.. =( nvm.. but it still quite fruitful.. nxt wk i dun wan to late again.. cos it impt lesson.. =D

after my bs, i went to meet my cg members. hahas. fellowship wif them.. lols.. n 1 more wks i'll get my results le.. so worried.. n getting my posting results nxt wk's fri.. so scary man.. lots of things in my mind now.. haiz.. then i went hm after tat.. =)

i feel so encourage

2009-03-23T23:21:00.002+08:00

i realli realli thank God for frenz ard me.. being so burdens for many mths thought it had gone.. but it came back again last wk.. haiz.. but without those frenz who encourage me all this while, without God strengthen me, i would realli give up n dont know wat to do..

thanx for those frenz who always be there for me.. u all r awesome!! although i do hve burdens in my heart, but with u guys ard n with God tat strengthen me, i hve alrdy feel much more better le.. thanx a lot!! =D

although i hve lost trust to ppl ard me, but i wil try to build up my trust towards ppl ard me.. pardon me if i dun.. i jus need time to gain back my trust towards u ppl.. 抱歉!! truely i hve realise even if i trust e person tat much, there r things i shouldn't do for them. haiz.. i realli learnt a big lesson.. gotta be wise in making decision alrdy..

i see through lots of things now.. even someone who is close to me, i also wil felt a distance frm them.. haiz.. n i dun realli wat is my fren thinking.. dun realli know wat my fren wants.. haiz.. God, lead me ur ways..

Dear Juan (;

2009-03-23T19:58:00.005+08:00

SURPRISED !!

Dear Juan RULAN is here to post for YOU !

so what happened just now was..

we went out !! WHERE?? TAMPINES MALL & CENTURY SQUARE !!

we had awesome time !! eating and chatting JUAN you are simple amazing !

no matter what happens, you always never fail to smile (:

Love having you around me !! we shall all meet up one day !! MORE MORE days !!

Time to look at the pics (; heeeeeee !

See how serious she looks haha! but her mind is thinking about me and Jas de haha! how I know? easy haha! guess lah~ haha!

CANT wait to meet up soooonz!

from ur buddy ... RULAN !!!

2009-03-22T09:39:00.004+08:00

ytd went for cg at 1.. hehe.. forgot to bring my wallet again.. =( suppose to buy peanuts de in e end i cant buy for them.. sorry.. after tat, we waited for e frenz to come n we start our games.. we played until 2.30 if i'm nt wrong.. haha.. then after tat, we start to hve praise and worship.. during worship, i realli felt e presence of God n i start to cry. He realli strengthen me at tat point of time..

tis song make me starts to put down my burden n jus concentrate on Him alone.

Whose hands are these
Holding mytrapeze
When i fly
You carry me
Whose eyes are these
Watching over me
Eyes of love
You set me free
Unafraid
What's ahead
You are always there before
My whole world
Your design
You are always there
Just right behind
My life is your song
To you my heart belongs
Let all earthlyt crowns
Fade in the shadow of the cross
My life is your song
I'll sing for you alone
Nothing in this world
Can take me away from you
Our love goes on and on

Whose arms are these
Shelter me from harm
In the stormYou are my calm
Whose voice are these
Whisper in my ear
When i'm lost
you always near

In all my life
Be glorified
With Christ in me
No longer I
So take my all
Consuming fire
Your Light in me
I'll it shine

after tat, we hve 2 personal testimony frm minqi n xian bi to share abt how God has changed their life after they received Christ. then offering time.. =Dafter tat we played games before we went to eat.. it was a great time man.. =D then we eat while we playing games too.. haha.. it was realli so much fun with them.. n all e frenz was enjoyed e games as well.. =D

after tat, there is a shuttle bus drive us to Hall 1for svc.. woohoo~ haha.. we went in to pray before e svc start.. then chatted wif e frenz.. =D n e svc start le.. today we sang a new worship song.. hahas.. n after tat, announcement n offeing time.. then finally Pst Kong come back.. woohoo.. today he preach abt e six love busters in a relationship.. but he preach e first three.. hehe..

- love is also an intensive feelings.-loving spouse with will power but no passion, then wat's e point of loving each other in e first place.

-even when the love is gone, you can love each other again as long as you find ways to solve every problems tat u hve encounter.

-a marriage shld nt jus for a distance but for a everlasting life..

-are we drawn away or are we rebound is by checking your love bank for your partners is still positive or became negative.

love buster is a destroyer of Love.
-abusive, controlling, habits.
1 Cor 13:4-7
abusive - a deliberate effort to cause your partner unhappy. it deliberately hurt you by using action, demanding n implusive words tat u gave.

"giver" VS "Taker"
giver - i will do whatever i can to bring benefit and happiness to benefit you to the extend tat i could do..
-Sacrificial love

taker - i will do whatever i can to benefit and happiness to benefit myself to e extend tat i could do.
-you will hve fight if both of u refuse to give in.
intimacy -> conflicts -> withdrawals
givers -> takers -> takers
Love -> Fight -> give up
-you will hard to get it back e intimacy when you start to withdraw n give up.
3 points of Love busters
bad -> Good
1. SELFISH DEMANDS / thoughtful requests
you only think what you want without caring his/her feelings.

how to resolve it?
Policy of Joint Agreement
-Never do anything withour an enthusiastic agreement between you n your partner.

-when you get demanding, you wont get mutually reaction back instead you wil withdraw by him/her
-when you make a request, it might be a yes or a no. if it is a No, discuss for a better solution instead of fighting abt tat issue.

you must hve ZERO TOLERENCE!

2. DISRESPECTFUL JUDGEMENTS/respectful persuasion
-Judgemental person has e attendacy to judge e people without thinking of other people feelings.
-always use "concern" to judge him/her in another way.
-it destroyed e love in e marriage or in an relationship.
-use some words tat could persuase him/her and respect them also.
-try to persuase him/her. if it cant work, STOP e subject first.
-nobody want to know anyone who is disrespectful.
-conflict is jus secondary. loving each other is e main point.

3. ANGRY OUTBURSTS
they shows unhappy feelngs.
it is a form of verbal attack or abusive attack.
purpose - punishment
angry outburst aim to punishment.
love your partner is nt for u to punish him/her, is to love him/her.
-people get angry to get even the scores.
-true love is nt abt being fair, true love is unconditional sacrifice for them.
-ministry is nt jus sacrificing, it is love doin it.
-in a love relationship, u get to come together n love each other n solve problems tgt.
-if u dun hve demanding and judgemental, you will nvr get angry easily and lose your temper.

continue e nxt 3 love busters when pst Kong come back.. woohoo..

after svc end, had our announcement at coffee beans as hall 1 was realli veri cold. hahas. after e announcement, sisters went to e toilets n some walked to e mrt station le. hahas. reached there after we come out frm toilet, do survey for vivian as tat is her project work. =D after tat, we went to tamp to fellowship there. =D chatted along e way. haha. took bus wif grace n minqi. ^^ chatted wif them a lot of things. n ard 11 then i reached home. lols. tat;s all for e day. haha.

2009-03-18T23:39:00.002+08:00

today went out wif my grp, joses n 2 of my member's frenz.. reached clarke quay n i was late abt 5 mins.. so sorry.. :( then after tat we went bugis to meet them.. we walked halfway thru then decided to take bus to bugis.. lols.. then we went to control station n meet them.. one is called adeline,e others is called shawn.. hehe.. we went to bugis street to walk ard.. adeline bought a short there. she was quite an easy going person.. ^^ nice to chat wif ya.. =D hehe.. then after tat, i received a call, became a bit moody but still managed to stay calm..

ard 7 plus, we went to take bus to riverwalk.. sian.. we gonna late soon.. but thank God e bus came.. phew.. we reached there ard 7.35.

today bible study was gd man.. after my bible study, went to look for royston they all at central wif my cg.. hmm.. we sitted at burger king as royston was talking to e CGCs.. after tat, i went to chat wif royston abt some stuffs.. haiz..

i keep thinking n thinking y everything jus come out so suddenly? it really struck my heart so hard tat i cant stand.. now then i know trust a person too much tat eventually they wil backstabbed u behind ur back without any notice.. now then i realised how God has react when Paul deny him 3 times as He was gonna crucified to death.. i really thank God for leaders.. without them, i really dun know wat to do.. i might hve given up or i'll be in trouble right now.. e problems arise again.. facing so many problems in tis whole wk n i realli dun know how to manage it.. haiz.. hope it still can salvage back. n it's time for me to do sth abt it le.. Pls guide me thru n strengthen me.. i wil nt hestitate to do anything le.. cos i wont be so soft-hearted anymore..

*pls make tis clear.. it nt i wan to do tat, is u force me to do wat i doesnt wan to do.. i dun care anymore, i wil fight to e end for my own rights.. i dun care how close we used to be in e past anymore.. i'm such a foolish to help u to do tis kind of stuff which i shld hve rejected u.. i know i was wronged.. i make sure everything tat i could do to make u admit everything..*

2009-03-18T23:23:00.002+08:00

tue - wake up ard 7.30 to go interview at clementi wif bee ling, sophia n li min. my fren bringing us there n his frenz also coming for interview too.. lols.. reached clementi control so early lo.. suppose to meet at 10.15 but i reached at 9.35.. diao.. then while i was waiting for them, then i read my magazine. n i was like gonna fell asleep but i keep on waking myself up.. lol.. then finally bee ling reached le.. =D then sophia also reached le then li min reached too.. n we were waiting for my fren to come.. late lo.. haha.. nvm..

then we walked to e place.. wa.. it seems like so far but as u walked, it quite near actually.. we like climbing mountains like tat, ups n downs non stop.. hahas.. finally we reached there le.. they gave us a form to fill up then wait for e person in charge to interview us.. after tat, one by one start to go in n interview.. e person jus asked can we work at tis timing to tis timing, when can we work, how many days r we working, can we continue when sch reopen, how much we expect for our salary n etc.. lols.. then after tat, he said he wil called us. then we went off tgt.. we took train back hm.. it was like finally cos i was so tired. tat day was full fast but i asked desmond for veg fast cos i wil get gastric.. so i bought mee siam which there is only veg hehe.. then went hm n rested awhile..

then ard 11.30, conference wif my grp.. =D it was a gd one man.. =D i believe as we start to pray n fast, everything tat we asked for shall be able to come true as He is a faithful God.. ^^

outing wif my cliques.. =D

2009-03-18T23:01:00.002+08:00

mon - went to meet my cliques at bukit batok to play bowling except zi yun.. all were late lo.. >.< huiru e latest lo.. haha.. nvm.. then i bought a magazine while waiting for them.. after tat, sophia n huiyi reach alrdy.. after tat bee ling reach le then zhi mei reach.. then we walked to e place which i dun know wat is it called n meet min ling there. when we reach there, all e lane was full lo.. diao.. then e person said we must wait until 1 then call play.. -.- n we forgot today is e starting of sch holidays alrdy.. lol..

after tat, we went to somewhere to sit down n wait for our turn. while waiting we were chit-chatting n taking photos too.. shu zhen came too.. =D ard 12.30, finally we can play bowling le.. ^^ then we took our bowling shoes n changed.. then there goes our game.. e first person is zhi mei, then huiyi, bee ling, sophia, min ling then my turn.. haha.. ard 1 plus, huiru finally reached le.. while we were playing, she took e photos of us playing.. diao.. e first game highest score is bee ling, then e second game e highest is zhi mei. lol..

after finished bowling, we went tointerchange n took bus to marina square as we gonna late to eat lunch-cum-dinner at yuki yaki.. but in e end, we still late.. cant go in cos left ard 45 mins for us to eat.. then we decide to go bugis to eat steamboat.. =D

we took bus 133 to bugis then we walked to e place. n when we reached tat place, it was wow.. more than wat we expect.. lols.. hmmm.. we sit seperate table.. sophia, min ling n me sitting one side while huiru, zhi mei, huiyi n bee ling sitted another side.. haha.. we all called e same soup, tom yum n chicken herbal soup. hehe.. yummy.. we took a lot of foods.. n we eat until 6 plus or 7.. we were veri full at tat time n still hve some more food left.. -.- nvm.. then we went off to pay e bills. didnt bring much cash out.. borrow frm them.. :( n my stomach was veri full n quite pain too.. -.- drink too much tom yum soup n i drink it alone.. omg..

after tat, we went to bugis n relax for awhile.. then went to kinokuniya to read some books.. haha.. it realli interesting.. =D after tat, we went to take neo prints to kept our memories.. ^^ after taking our neo print, sophiz, huiru, zhi mei was editing e photos while we were taking photos behind them.. hahas.. n we went in to e place where we took our neo prints there to took some other photos.. ^^ after they finished editing e photos, they came in n join us.. hahas.. then after tat, huiyi went to double index to buy her pants.. =D

after tat we took train hm.. n e nxt day i meeting bee ling, sophia n li min to go for interview.. ^^

该不该放弃呢??

2009-03-17T13:13:00.002+08:00

曾經你傷害我, 但我仍然還是信任你. 可是你為什麼還是繼續傷我的心? 難道我所做的一切還不夠多嗎? 你需要什麼,我儘量達到你的要求. 可是你總是只希望得到多過於付出. 我好累了,真的好累了. 每次你都不在乎我的感受,只覺得自己什麼都是對的. 你曾經受到傷害,難道我們也要跟你一樣受傷害嗎? 若你真的沒把我放在你心里, 那就算了吧. 就當作是個教訓好了.

你覺得你身邊的人對你比我對你還要好, 那乾脆你跟他好了. 我不會後悔,因為我再也不想繼續這種生活. 好辛苦喔!:( 現在我只想顧及我的工作跟學業, 其他的什麼都不在乎了.

也許這首歌真的在描述我的心聲.

不值得

除了想你除了爱你
hu ~我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记整理心情
hu ~我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你
除了想你除了爱你
hu ~我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记打开心情
hu ~我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
不为你而放弃爱情
不为你而毁了心
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你

2009-03-12T11:16:00.014+08:00

opps.. sorry wor.. didnt blog for e last few days cos was busy n having exams.. but now free.. woohoo.. haha..

mon - having my accounting exams. before tat, me, zhi mei, bee ling, huiyi n zi yun went to bedok to hve our lunch there. after tat, went to suntec to pass e present to my fren.. hmmm.. tat day my mum nvr give me allowance.. no money to eat. >.<

tue - was supposingly meet jas n rulan to eat Sakae sushi.. then on my way to tamp, was studying my auditing.. after reached tamp, i wait for them.. then rulan reached le.. we went to century square n meet jas. after tat, we went to Mondo n buy shoes.. yea.. i finally bought my sandals frm Mondo.. n a pair of black heels too.. cos my shoes gt hole liao.. lols.. after tat, we didnt went to Sakae Sushi n eat cos they said nt worth it.. then we went to cafe cartel n eat.. =) after eating, we went hm cos jas goin to cgc meeting.. hehe..

wed - having my last paper audit. finally it ended le.. woohoo.. holidays is coming n finding work soon too.. then after tat, went to bugis wif zi yun n zi mei.. we went to lots of shops n e clothes there is quite nice n cheap too.. after tat we went to plaza sing cos zhi mei wan to buy e clothes frm there. lols.. then after tat, we went to mac n buy drinks n rest for awhile.. we took some photos there too.. =D hmmm.. then after tat, we went seperate ways le. i went to tp n meet mycg members cos some of them went to study while i go there jus to fellowship.. lols.. ard 6, we went to eat dinner at canteen at tp.. it cheap n nice wor.. lols.. haha.. after we went to bs together as we gonna late soon.. when we reached there, e lesson start halfway thru le.. sian.. then after bs finished, went to LJS n fellowship wif them while some of them is eating.. after send one sister hm then we took bus 63 hm.. =D

the memories of e 9 of us

2009-03-10T19:40:00.017+08:00

being wif them tis 2 yrs is so much joy.. jus like e burden will jus gone with them ard.. really miss them as we r goin to different ways.. some continue schooling, some goin to work.. hope we can meet us more yea? thanx for being a great friend of mine.. u all r fantastic..that's wat friends are for.. =)

photos of e day.

i have a song to dedicate to all of u..

That's What Friends Are For

And i never thought i'd feel this way

And as far a i'm concerned

I'm glad i got the chance to say

That i do believe, I love you

And if i should ever go away

Well, then close your eyes and try

To feel the way we do today

And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That's what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

Thats what friends are for

Well, you came in loving me

And now there's so much more i see

And so by the way

I thank you

Oh and then for the times when we're apart

well, then close your eyes and know

The words are coming from my heart

And then if you can remember

Keep smiing, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That's what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for (x3)

i'm sure tis is e friendship tat we hve in tis 2 yrs.. hope our friendship wil be forever n stronger.. =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

2009-03-08T22:46:00.017+08:00

more photos of e day. ^^

pei pei n me

me, pei pei n jas

jas, me n pei pei

me n my tomato soup. lols.

my Tomato Soup. it nice.. ^^

rulan, jas n me

she is talking on e phone while i close my eyes.. diao..

me n rulan

it's me. ^^

me n pei pei

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME & my fren, RAY!!
today went to celebrate my birthday wif my frenz.. =D

photos of e day

taken before goin out. ^^

after tat, i went to PS n wait for ru lan as Jas was overslept n late too. lols. then when ru lan reached, we went to walked ard for awhile. after tat, she went to Daiso to look for box. then i saw one heart bow which is quite nice, n she bought it. after tat, we went to a quiet place n took pictures cos she goin off to meet yong xiu. lols. n tis is e photo.

ru lan n me.. =)

it us again.. lols
after tat, she took out e box tat she bought jus now. lols. it was my birthday present inside e box. lols..

a bangle n e gift box.

eh.. a bit unglam.. diao..

e bangle n e necklace which Jas n Ru lan bought de.. =)

after tat, Jas reached le.. we took some photos but nt in my phone, is at Jas's camera. wil update soon.

then after tat, Jas n me went to Hot Tomato express n eat which waiting for Pei Pei n Jolin. e food there is nt bad too.. n e tomato soup is quite nice lo.. which they r specialize in.. =D

after tat, we went to walked ard. Jolin left at 5 plus. then we went to Arcade n play games. lols.
ard 7, Jas went to meet weili they all.. =D we took train to Aljunied, n i saw Yong xiu before tat. haha. when we reached, we went to library to find Li yuan. then me n pei pei went to eat our dinner at a coffee shop then after ahile we went hm le..
tis is e photos on our way hm..

me n Pei Pei

Twist

No cycling behind us.. *twist*.. lols.

thanx everyone to celebrate my birthday n e birthday greetings tat u all hve sent.. i appreciated it.. =)

2009-03-08T22:26:00.003+08:00

a full set of winnie e pooh n gangs frm my cg fren. ^^ thanx.

e bear box tat contain my present

sat went for cg meeting. n i forgot to bring my wallet n my fren's present. sian. after cg, royston talked to us.. then after tat ard 4 plus, went went to expo le.. =) hmmm.. then svc start at 5.30 as usual. lols. ytd svc was great. Wow. i learnt a lot of things there. =D after svc, they celebrate my birthday. thanx.. =D they sang birthday song to me. after tat royston talked awhile, then my turn after tat. hehe. i really really appreciate tis cg. they really bring joy n laughter to tis cg. i nvr regret to be in tis cg. we really went thru a lot. n i can say tis third generation of E149 is so much difference than e previous one.. i've seen all of them grow so much more spiritually n maturely.. =) continue to shine for e Lord yea??

after tat, i went to my fren, wen ting's birthday. =) at first, i took bus 24. but hten i thought i took e wrong one, then i dropped down at tanah merah. after tat i realise i did took e right bus.. sian.. then i called my fren to lend me money, but she dun hve. then i hve to call another fren to help me pay as i cabbed down to her chalet. =( then turning round n round, i finally reached. went to find her as she is busy. n i sitted there, dun know wat to do cos i dun really know them.. diao.. then her relatives served me some food which i felt a bit odds.. then ate some food n drank some drinks. after tat i msg my frenz cos there r coming down also. ard 10 plus, they finally reached le.. also long nvr see them le. so i chatted with them. =D ard 11, she cut her cake. before everyone take pictures with her. =) ard 11 pluc, we went off le cos i worried there is no more bus, then my fren said hve hve.. lols. then we chatted while we walking. =D ard 12, we reached e bu stop, then we realised almost all e bus end at 11 plus de.. thank God, i gt last bus 43 which end at 12.05. phew.. then they wait for my bus to come then they went off.. so touch.. hehe.. thanx.. =D after tat, i received a lot of birthday greetings.. =D thanx!!

2009-03-06T21:57:00.002+08:00

today went out at 12 to meet joanne at her house to pass her customers shoes. after she changed, we went to Dhoby Ghaut n pass e shoes to her customer as we were late. lols. then after tat, she went to Auntie Anne n buy pretzel n eat. we took train to potong pasir to pass e t-shirt to her another customer. lols. then we went to AMK hub to watch movie, He's just not that into you. eh.. a bit boring but it's quite meaningful. after watch finished e show, we went to shop for awhile. =) after tat, we went to Kovan as i wan to buy present for my fren. so last min lo.. diao. after tat, i went to pasa malam to buy food n eat. hehe.. after tat, we went seperate ways le. =D

2 more days to my birthday, 3 more days to my exams.. n i'm free all e way to apr. hahas. Poly, here i come. hahas.

photos, photos, photos.

2009-03-06T09:55:00.024+08:00

continue my photos in class n at e garden during our lunch break.

we pointing at huiyi. hahas

we holding hands tgt. haha

merry-go-round. lols.

they carrying Huiru. hahas.

we act our own 'power' pose. lols.

fighting pose. lols.

it's us.

heart-shaped pose

twist pose.

looking n pointing at e sky. lols.

act like a flower. we r 九朵花. hahas.

ups n downs.

ups n downs. 2

our jumping effects. cool eh..

zi yun helped me to wear my new necklace tat they bought.

my earrings.

my neckalce wif my name on it. ^^ love it.

our grp photo 6.

our grp photo 7

bee ling, zhi mei, sophia, shu zhen n me.

zhi mei, sophia, me, bee ling n zi yun.

nice photos rite? hahas.. to all of them - wow.. time flies.. it's been 2 yrs le. n we r graduating soon le. thanx for being my best frenz in tis 2 yrs. although it wasnt tat long but it seems like we know each other for quite long le. hahas. really glad to hve u guys ard. there r so much fun n laughter in tis grp. we gone thru a lot. haha. nvr forget all of u n we wil meet each other out if we can yea? let our friendship be much more closer than before.. =) love ya guys n i'll miss all of u.. =D

my memories

2009-03-06T09:12:00.007+08:00

ytd went to sch..but we were taking photos for memories cos is our last day in sch n final exams in coming our way le.. then they gave me my birhtday presents in advance.

photos of e day

our grp photo 1

our grp photo 2

our grp photo 3

our grp photo 4

our grp photo 5

there are more coming up frm bee ling's camera.. catch up wif it =)

after tat i went to yishun as my fren want to clelbrate my birthday for me but it turn out nt tat gd. haiz. nvm. went to jp n walked ard n we went to a japanese so called restaurant n eat ramen. it nice. can give it a try yea? hehe.. after tat i went to downtown east to watch movie, My Bloody valentine wif my cg members. n all late. lols. nvm.. hmmm.. as we thought it was 3D de but in e end it is jus normal show. but other places hve 3D de la. lols. but thank God we r nt watching it in 3D de, cos it damn gross la.. -.- everyone of us were afraid of it. lols. haha.. e show end ard 11 plus. n it's raining heavily. -.- i bring my umbrella finally. hahas. then i reached hm ard 12 plus. lols. n i went to slp le.. lols.

everything has been solved le. finally. *phew*

summary of my life. lols

2009-03-04T23:07:00.002+08:00

sorry. didnt update my blog. cos been studying for my exams which is jus 5 days away. lols. n thinking abt some stuffs tat jus happened in my personal life. haiz.

mon - went to eat my lunch at bedok wif my cliques. then after tat huiyi, huiru n me went to bedok north de mac there n study wif sam, wen gui, elin n shila. was quite friutful tat day cos learnt quite a lot frm some of them.. ^^ after 6 then we went hm. lols.

tue - went to Mos Burger n ate my lunch there wif my cliques again. hehe. tis is e first time i heard shu zhen said, "i want to go". haha. we cahtted along while eating. hehe.. walk ard for awhile then we went back hm le..

today - went to eat lunch at tamp mall's Kopitiam. lols then after we went to Popular cos huiyi want to buy her stationery. in e end we went there to read books. lols. haha. but she bought it after tat. dotts. hmmm.. then after tat we went seperate ways. me, huiyi, zhi mei n sophia took train tgt. i dropped down at bedok to buy Joanne's customers' shoes. lols. then ard 3 plus or 4, i reached riverwalk. lols. but then she told me she nt coming to take her shoes. -.- nvm.. she transferred me e money, i'll pass her e shoes on fri. diao. hmmm.. after Jas come n find me. hehe. we chatted along while i was doin my revision on auditing. sian. cant balance. =(
ard 6, we went to a so called coffee shop which sell bah ku teh. ^^ passby there before, seeing so many ppl went there to eat but nvr go there try. tis is e first time. she said is quite nice. yea. indeed e bah ku teh is nice. lols. n they gt free flow of soup. u can ask them to refill it if u still wan to drink. lols. n it's cheap too.. ONLY 5.50 or 7.50 then u hve a free flow of soup wor.. ^^ after tat went back to riverwalk. lols. went for my bible study. fivefold ministry part A lesson 2. =) today lesso nwas cool la. it talked abt the ministry of a teacher. hahas.. wow.. i've learnt alot. n i really hve to start to go into a ministry le. ministry, Here i come. hahas. after tat, went to LJS wif Joses n Desmond. min qi joined along too. hehe.. after they finished eating, we went seperate ways le. lols..

End of my summary. hahas. continue it asap if i'm free.

我要怎样才能继续信任我身边的人？？

2009-02-27T11:35:00.002+08:00

也许刚开始我就不应该答应你的要求，就不会搞到今天这个局面了。当初我帮你的时候，我相信你会承担所有的责任。可是只从那天你没还的时候，我开始对你一点信心也没有了。每当你给我期望的时候，我的失望就越大，甚至对你这个朋友感到越来越疏远了。为什么我们要变成那么陌生？？

难到以前我帮你做的每一件事，还不足够吗？我只是要求你一件那么简单的事，难到有这么困难吗？你有必要要给我这种态度吗？虽然我有错，错就错在我太信任你了，但你就没有错吗？我知道是有点多，可是那都是你所用的结果。如果你没用到那么多，会搞到你自己也来不及应付。每一次我想到这件事，我就开始哭了。我哭不只是因为你没还，而是因为你让我太伤心了。我收到的那封信，如果你没还我得帮你承担所有的责任。就因为我帮你申请。。这个责任好大喔！=（ 4个数目，我该怎么还？？唉！我快要撑不下去了。。

2009-02-24T18:45:00.002+08:00

ytd after sch went to cafe cartel n eat wif my frenz. e first time we went to eat tgt. lols. me n sophia eat chicken and cream mushroom baked rice, shu zhen, mi ling n zhi mei eat ham n mushroom baked pasta, zhi mei n hwee ru eat pasta, hui yi n zi yun eat hotdog bun. lols. then after tat, we went to tamp isetan, wallet shop n BHG to walk ard n look for wallet. haha.. n we found it. =) then after tat we went hm.. lols.

today after finish lesson, me, bee ling, zhi mei, huiyi, hwee ru n zi yun went to bedok hawker centre n eat. lols. so funny seh.. then after finished eating, we went back hm. i waiting for e technician to come n fix my modem n com. ard 25 mins, my internet finally can use le.. =)

2009-02-24T17:10:00.004+08:00

zhi mei, sophia, zi yun, me n shu zhen

me n zi yun

sorry for nt updating cos my internet gt prob.. i'll jus summarised it for last wk.

mon - i went out wif hwee ru n zi yun to eat at kfc but no money.lols. borrowed frm hwee ru. then we i ate i med n 2 small whipped potato. lols. after finished eating, we went to tamp to walk ard. cos we were buying valentines' exchange gifts. lols. i know wat to buy but they didnt sell it there. lols. then i went back to Singapore post n buy. lols. finally i found it. then went back to wrap it. hahas..

tue - we exchange our gifts after sch.. lols.. hahas.. we get so many funny things.. hehe..

wed - went study wif sam, shu zhen, elin, wen gui, laura, shila n su yu. lols. after tat, laura, elin n wen gui went hm, left us staying back awhile more to do some more revision. lols. we bought food to eat as some of us was quite hungry. n we talked abt lots of things. then after that we start revising. lols. they were veri funny la.. asked some weird questions. lols. haha. after tat, we took mrt together. haha. we were asking sam something. lols. hahas.. after tat, i dropped down first n went to bible study for my last lesson. lols. thought i cant be able to take e quiz but Darren allowed some of us to do so but we hve to take our lesson by tis wk. hehe. then after tat went back hm n rest.

thurs - went to grandma house first cos goin to eat dinner wif them. =) after tat, we went to aljunied crescent there to eat 'zhu chao'. lols. e food there is quite nice la. hehe.. then after tat we went back hm le.

fri - actually goin shop tgt de then after tat they said dun wan. then me n zi yun wanted to go tamp n walk de. they called us n asked us wanna join them to go Lot One n walk. lols. i asked zi yun, she said anything. then i said ok lo. diao. e first time i went to choa chu kang n it was e furthest place i went. lols. we went to e restroom n we took some photos outside e restroom. lols.

then we went to eat our lunch at MOS Burger first as we were veri hungry. lols. after tat, we went to walk ard. lols. they were veri funny. we went to mondo n take a look. i saw e sandals tat i wan but e other one dun hve. =( some of them like tat sandals too. lols. then after tat, we went to Gifts A Name n take a look. i saw sth tat i like too.. then they start their 'conversation'. lols. then after tat, we went to COUPLE LAB n take a look. i like e rings n e necklace there. especially wif e name on it. =D they were keep asking e sales girl there. haha. especially Zi Yun. she was so obvious lo. hahas.

sat - went to tiong bahru. walked for awhile. then after tat me n my fren went to yishun as he wanna take his free mp4. lols. then he went back hm n transferred all e songs n etc into his mp4. after so long, he asked me to go hm. -.- nvm. then after tat i went to jurong n meet my frenz. diao. waiting for my another fren to finish his work then we went to jurong point. lols. they were eating. n we chatted abt my fren's gf. diao. hmmm.. then after tat they went to smoke. -.- ard 10 plus, we took train except my fren. reached ard 11. lols.

sun - went to svc in e morning wif kaisheng, xian bi n aunty susan. after svc ended, xian bi thought of goin to cgm but it was too far for him n it too rushed for him as he gt to book in before 5. lols. then we went to parkway's laundry to washed his army clothes. then we walked ard n buy his clothes as he a bit sick of green coloured clothes. hahas. after tat, we went to mac n rest. i was hungry. then i went in to buy food. n i saw hwee ru. lols. i dun dare to ordered frm her but i called her. she gt shocked. hahas. after tat, she come n find me as she finished her work le. lols. was chatting wif my frenz too.. so funny. after tat, me n xian bi went to walk ard as we want kaisheng to concentrate on his revision. lols. then xian bi bought a newspaper after we went to a bookstore at a hawker centre. after tat, we went to take a seat at e hawker centre n he read his newspaper. lol. after tat, we went back to mac n find kaisheng. lols. then we went to take his clothes as it has dried alrdy. lols. then after tat, we went to CGH as xian bi wanna go checkup. wow. it was quite fast seh. hahas. saw a few frm army too.. then after tat, they went to east point n eat while i goin down to tiong bahru again. -.- reached ard 6.30, but my fren haven reached yet. then i went to buy magazine to read while waiting. after tat, my fren reached le. we went to eat at LJS before meeting his father. after meeting his father le, we went to tiong bahru plaza n walk ard. ard 9 plus, his fren coming down. lols. then we waited for his fren at burger king. lols. his fren reached le n went to eat at burger king. after tat, we went hm. lols.

2009-02-16T18:36:00.002+08:00

ytd woke up at 9 plus.. using com to update my blog n everything.. =D ard 11.30, i gave xian bi a morning call.. lols.. then after tat i went to bathe n waited for him to prepared finished then i go out. lols.. after tat i went to 7-eleven to buy sandwich n eat while sms-ing Nicholas how to come to our area. then i went to e hawker centre n find xian bi. after tat, nicholas reached. they ate their breakfast there. after tat guang xiang came n joined us too.. lols.. then kenneth came too.. lols.. ard 1.10, xian bi, kenneth, nicholas n me took cab tgt. then ard 1.30 or slightly later we reached Yi ming cg's place. then we were start playing games. yea.. quite fun. =D after tat, praise song then testimony before worship.. wa.. e anointing was really strong.. can feel e presence of God n all my burdens was jus gone. after tat, yi ming start e word. today topic is wat exactly is love about?

John 13:34-35 -> God wants us to be one another.
Heb10:24
Love isn't easy. Love is nt jus talk e talk, but walk e walk.
Love is nt e outward expression but it is from e inside.

1 Cor13:4-7
1) Love is having patient n kindeness.
- Willingness to know e person or spend time with e person.
Kindness (Matt 25-35-36,40)
When u bless someone who is in need, u r honoring God even if e person is nt deserving it.

2) love is having forgiveness.
1 Cor 13:5
-Love take no account of e evil n e bad things done for u.
-Love keep no record of being wronged.
-Love does nt insist on your rights.
when u give up e rights, it is when u start to forgive them.
Luke 23:34 - forgive them because they do nt know wat they doing.
Eph 4:27 - Anger gives e foothole into your heart.
when u start to forgive, u hve no more rights alrdy.
this is wat Love is tat God has given to us.
u dun demand e rights.

3) Love is honoring all.
1 Cor 13:7 - Love is ever ready to believe e best of every person.
Honor in greek- to value, to appreciate, to esteem, to regard n to respect.
Dishonor in greek - to treat as common, to shame n to humiliate.
True honor come from inside of your heart nt your actions.

we must honor people nt gossiping with others.

Prov 17:9 - we must learn how to cover our frenz with love.
Eph 4:1-3 - we gt to make e allowance to know each other more.

we gt to renewed our thoughts, as we put on e new nature, we wil become more n more like Him.

after tat, worship n really engaged into e presence. then after tat, offering time. n cg was ended. then me n xian bi sent nicholas to e bus stop then he took cab hm. xian bi n me went to parkway to walk ard n wait for joanne they all.. ard 4 plus, joanne n xin yu reached le. =D we went to Old Chang Kee n xin yu bought some food there. after tat we went to e hawker centre n find royston n mei yan. then we saw Pst Meng. lols. then we greeted him hahas. after tat, xian bi n royston went to buy drink for him. lols. so funny. then after me n xian bi bought chao guo tiao cos it seems quite famous eh. hahas. then xin yu went to buy ramen. after tat, kaisheng reached le. after finished eating, we went to parkway n walked ard. then we stopped for awhile before we start walking ard again. ard 7 plus, me, xian bi n kaisheng wait for aunty susan to take cab down then we board e cab. we chatted along e way to pasir ris. i met my fren at 8.30 to pass sth to him cos it quite urgent. hope everything wil be fine. haiz.. then after tat i went to mac n bought a drink cos no money liao. lols. then kaisheng sent xian bi after tat come back n meet us. then we chatted along while eating. lols. ard 9 plus, we took bus 58 home. hehe. quite a enjoyable day but a burden day too.. =/ haiz.. wil everything be fine???

2009-02-15T09:51:00.003+08:00

tis is e valentine gifts given by my cg brothers. so sweet. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ERICA!!

ytd woke up at 9 plus or 10.. then use com for awhile.. =) ard 2 plus, mum came hm wif wanton mee.. hehe.. then after i ate finished, i went to bathe n changed.. went off at 4. sian.. i forgot to bring my ez-link out frm another wallet.. -.- gt to use coins alle back frm goin out n goin back.. =( then reached expo at ard 4.40.. lols.. i thought i was late but no one was there yet.. diao.. then i went to 7-eleven n buy drinks.. =) then after i saw CK. haha.. then we chatted a little.. joses n kaisheng came.. haha.. wow.. wif a lot of balloons.. one big balloon is for da sao.. hahas.. so sweet lo.. hehe..then after tat everyone came.. they bought some gifts for mei yan as she wil nt be in our cg frm tml onwards.. wow.. it look like it her birthday.. hahas.. then we went to hall 8 find seats n settled down..

at 5.30, svc started.. praise n worship starts.. felt e presence of god during e worship.. was realli telling God abt my burden.. haiz.. nvm.. after tat, is announcement.. then tithes n offering.. then after tat, Pst Kong reached le n start preaching.. hehe.. he gonna continued abt last wk topic.. today is second n tihrd greatest thing for man n woman..

Woman

2. conversation

- woman need a talk to their man, so tat wont feel being alone..

85% of e divorce is due to poor conversation.

-Man talk abt 15,000 words a day while Woman talk abt 30,000 words a day.. WOW!!

-ALL man shld spend 15 hrs/wk to talk to their partner/wife.

-Communication is e key of life.

2 things to help couple to build up their realtionship..

1. wat is e need of hers?

2. hve u meet the needs of hers?

his(mutual interest)hers

-u gt to hve e same interest as her in order to make e relationship getting stronger n stronger.

phil 2:4

-Look out for e interest for other people nt only yours..

-Give her e attention verbally.

Col 4:6 - learn to converse with a caring voice.

-Conversation shld be constructive. BNuild her feelings up.

3. Woman need Honesty n openness.

-Woamn need to trust in u.

-Every woman wants to know everything about u in DETAILS.

if u did not honest with her, she wil STOP trusting u n her love wil get drift apart.

-Every woman has a intuition. even a little white lie tat u told her she also can sense it, cos ur facial expressions can tells her everything.

every man must always tell e truth to your partner/wife.

If u reach a measure of trust, e marriage/relationship wil be enjoyable.

Man

2. Recreational companionship

become his best friend.

-Man need recreation with their partner after a busy day.

Man feel gd if u do spend time to do some recreation wif them.

-U gt to make sacrifice for man so tat they wont have affairs outside.

couple tat place tgt, stay tgt.

3. Attractive Spouse/Partner

1 Sam 16:7 - Man look for outward appearance but God look for e heart.

-Woman is instimulating by hearing while Man is instimulating by sight.

-U gt to dress up nicely in order to attract him.

woman n man hve different needs.

there are 5 major area tat is need for woman.

a) Weight Control

hve a healthy lifestyle.

Ur partners wants u to hve a gd figure.

b) Make-up

-to look more attractive.

Dolling urself up.

c) hairstyle

-Do nt make urself older than ur current age.

d) clothes/Fashion

Dress attractively for your partner no matter u r goin to work or stay at hm.

e) cosmetics surgery (it frm an author)

-Defect on ur body tat make u nt attract to your partner.

our outward appearance make some people feel gd.

- Self-esteem is e foundation of ur life.

tat's all for e day.. to be continued e nxt 2 greatest things abt woman n man. after Pas Kong preached fnish, something happened.. e church staff n him bought rings for e married couple to revow to their wife. Wow!! so romantic la.. n it almost 1/4 of our church goin down.. so cool.. how i wish i hve tat too... but still too early to say. hahas. then after tat they excsnge their rings. n then we hve one last praise song before e svc ended.

tat after tat meet us at e back of e seats.. then they bought some valentine gifts to apprecite e sisters. Wow! so cool.. e pic above is e gifts tat they gave us. nt well taken. sorry. lols. =) thanx brothers!! n they sang a song for us too.. wow!! haha. they our sisters side, they made cookies n muffins for e brothers. wow!! it look nice yea.. hehe.. after we celebrate Erica n Yuting birthday. after tat, they present a birthday card for vivian too cos last last wk we didnt it was her birthday.. then after tat we took our grp photo, we went to E!Hub de superdog there n eat.. we chatted along a way to pasir ris n writing e card for e birthday gals.. =D then after tat we reached E!hub de superdog there n eat. hmmm.. e food there is still ok la but a bit ex. lols.. but it an enjoyable day.. =) it been a long time to hve so much fun eh.. hehe.. after tat, da sao talked to us.. yea.. after she transferred to another cg, there is no more female cgc le.. indeed we hve to grow more spiritually mature n start to do more for e cg.. mei yan, we dun bear to see u leave tis cg too.. we hve so much fun tgt, we wil definitely miss u de.. as u r goin to another cg, u gt more things to learn in tat cg too.. e sisters wil nt let u down.. =) be happy gal. =)

then after we went to wait for bus.. we keep on missed our bus.. haha. then after i went to e restroo, then e bus came. then me, xian bi, grace, joanne n kaisheng took e bus.. wow.. it alrdy 12 plus at tat time.. haha.. first time fellowship wif cg until so late. lols. then after tat took bus hm wif xian bi. he shared a lot abt his NS life. it look really tough yea.. but i'm sure God wil strengthen u all e way to ur 2 yrs NS life de.. after tat reached e bus stop, i quickly went hm n bathe. changed le n went to slp.. tiring day but enjoyable day.. =D

2009-02-15T09:24:00.006+08:00

Friday

went to sch as per normal. having audit lesson n hve an early dismissed.. =D then some of my frenz went to hve their breakfast while we sitting there chit chatting.. lols.. ard 9.45, hwee ru came.. lols.. then after tat we went for SW at 10 as our PE lesson has push forward le.. n ard 11, we were dismissed le.. then we all went seperate ways.. me, bee ling, hwee ru n sam took e same bus but they dropped down earlier than us.. then after tat i took bus 65 back hm n went to salon n hve a hair cut cos e weather is a bit warm.. sian.. then after tat went hm to use com for awhile.. ard 2 plus, my fren called me n said can meet alrdy.. diao.. didnt prepared then i faster went to bathe n get changed n went out..

reached vivo ard 4 plus then i went to banquet n find them.. they were finished eating le.. then i went to buy my food.. my lunch n dinner.. lols.. then after tat they wanted to watched movie, Defiance. then i said ok lo.. thank for e other fren cos he hve Safra card, so our tickets is cheaper.. =) thanx eh.. then after they went to arcade n play which is i dun like to hang out de.. nvm.. then they played n played n played.. my mum called.. she found out abt e letter.. sian.. then i gt no mood liao.. then i quickly msg my fren to tell her abt e letter thing then she argeed to take it frm me tml.. then i was pull along to played shoot balls game wif my fren.. can distress too.. lols.. then after tat we went to pet safari if i'm nt wrong.. haha.. e dogs there were veri cute.. =) then after tat we went to daiso n buy some snack there.. lols.. after tat we went to cold storage n buy some other thngs as they bringing it in to e cinema.. diao.. after tat still early.. we went to challenger to take a look.. wow.. e laptop is quite cheap wor.. haha.. then my frenz trying to played their games frm e XBox 360. lols.. then after awhile, we went outside e cinema n sit for awhile. then my fren went to buy a drink before we went in..

ard 7 plus, e show start.. hmmm.. a bit dun understand e story but overall is quite alright la.. lols.. ard 9.30, e show ended.. =) wow.. e show is quite long eh.. hahas.. then after we took train hm.. n was getting a bit moody cos abt e letter thingy.. haiz.. then my fren asked me wat happened.. then i jus said it out lo.. went hm ard 10 plus.. went to bathe n changed.. n then i went to sleep.. was pretty tired.. that's all for e day.. bye.

2009-02-12T21:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MINLING!!

today reached sch at ard 9.30. lols.. then i went to Seng City n buy Sweet n Spicy roller coaster n eat. after tat ard 9.45, zi yun reached le.. then chatted a little wif her.. then zhi mei reached too.. we went to AA lesson after tat.. then we hve a class test for conso balance sheet.. still can do e test la.. but i dun understand e conso income statement. =( then after she gave us cash flow question to do.. a bit forgot how to do le.. -.- nvm.. then i tried to do lo.. if dun know then ask lo.. after she gave us another cash flow question.. sian..

hmmm.. ard 12, our class dismissed le.. cos gt no CARE lesson.. then we went to capus haven n ate our lunch there. we talked abt lot of things while eating.. =D after we eat finished, we requested min ling to unwrapped her presents.. =D firstly is hwee ru, huiyi, zi yun, bee ling n me de.. it was frm body shop de.. after tat is zhi mei de, a bright pink nail polish n a cute tofu.. lols.. then is sophia de, a candle n a small little bottle of 'xiang si dou'. lols. then after tat is shu zhen de, a sofa tat can put jewelry de.. then lastly is zi jia de, she gave her a garden photo frame.. =D

after unwrapping her presents, she went hm wif shu zhen n bee ling. then we went to 3rd floor n sit for awhile.. we chatted a lot of things.. then me, zhi mei, zi yun n sophia doin our cash flow questions while huiyi n huiru listening music.. at 2 plus, we went for audit lesson.. we do quite a lot of questions.. while they writing on e board, i do my cash flow question. sian.. i still cant balance.. =( nvm.. try again lo..

ard 3 plus our lesson ended.. then we went to e toilet. then we went our seperate ways.. then after reached tamp interchange, i waited for bus 65 as my bus jus went off.. sian.. then after 5-10 mins, my bus came. =) then i took bus to my grandma house cos my relatives is coming.. waiting for mum to bring my clothes.. diao.. then after awhile, my mum reached le.. finally.. lols.. then ard 6.30, we ate our dinner. lots of food lo.. omg.. hahas.. after awhile, i was quite full then i stopped eating.. i went to e living room n watch tv wif them. =) then we chatted along while watching tv.. ard 9, my relatives send us hm.. =D then now at hm blogging.. =)

2009-02-07T23:10:00.003+08:00

today woke up at 10 as my mind is awake.. lols.. then i go washed up n used my com for awhile.. Watching MIT until 11.15 then i went to bathe.. went off at 11.30 to meet joanne.. lols.. n when i reached, i sms her.. she took cab again.. -.- nvm.. wa.. she late.. her supposed to meet at 12.15 but end up late. lols. n her supplier also waiting for her.. diao.. when she reached, i brought her to money changer n change money.. then shw posb n deposit n withdraw money.. lols.. then she met her supplier n gave her e money.. then we quickly rushed to josees house for cg.. we were late ard 25 mins.. sorri..

then kaisheng lead game called bang bang.. lols.. a bit fun la.. hahas.. then after tat cg started.. =) we started praise n worship.. =) then after shared testimony abt wat God has done in our life..=D after testimony, we watched a dvd tat pst Kong talked abt New Life Church in Taiwan.. wow!! seeing so many celebrities getting saved was realli amazed me.. if God can touches celebrities' heart, wat abt outside e celebrities's world? n Pst Kong was saying we shld used more of our talents to reach our to e outside world.. yea.. it quite true.. although it might nt happen it now, but i'm sure sooner or later e day wil come.. =) after tat, it was offering time.. then finished giving offering, Royston giving some announcements.. eh.. it was a quite shockednews to me.. cos it doesnt seems like it wil happen but it still happened.. after wat i hve heard, something realli come into my mind.. it reaali so different.. haiz.. nvm..

after tat, we went off to svc as e time is a bit late le.. some went to buy food, some went to restroom before we walked to e bus stop n wait for e bus.. then after we took bus 38 as e bus had arrived.. ard 5, we reached expo le.. we quickly walked to hall 8 n book seats for our cg.. =D finally we found seats frm e usher.. =) then we went to put our bags n chat.. me n ruiyi went to restroom before svc start.. after we came in ard 5 mins, svc started le.. praise n worship as usual.. but today worship i could realli felt e presence of God.. realli cried out to him n sing praise to Him.. felt so refreshing after worship.. =D today is e first wk of e mth.. so we wil read e apostles creed.. then we wil closed our eyes to asked for forgiveness if we hve sins in our life.. n then after everything, there is some announcements.. after tat is tithes n offerings time.. =D then after tat, pst Kong arrived to preached le.. =)

today's topic is talking abt relationship.. i felt tat i realli know more abt how to handle a relationship more le.. 3 things in a relationship/marriage:
1. Sharing Life
-You got to Dwell with your wife/partner.
-Spend more time with her.

2. Be more considerate and thoughtful
-Be more understanding to your wife/partner.

3. Appreciation
-Respect your partner/wife. Value her.
-everything you demean her, you will lower her value/self-esteem.
1 cor 7:3
when you love somebody, you got to satisfy each other's needs, not jus for u urself.

if both does not meet each other's needs, there wil be conflicts, quarrelling n etc..

you got to have skills in loving and understanding each other in order to hve a good relationship.

hosea 4:6
"knowledge is power"

God not just create us outwardly, but our inward heart.

the top 5 needs for a man is totally different frm e top 5 needs of a woman.

what is an affair?
a sexual realtionsho[ between two people not married to each other.
Affairs-> Sex & Love -> Intimacy

if you don't neet each other needs, under soe circumstances, an affairs started.

we all hve a love bank for e person we like/love/

Love Bank -> Love Units (LU)
Comfortable + 1 LU uncomfortable - 1 LU
Good + 2 LU bad - 2 LU
Very Good + 3 LU very Bad - 3 LU
Exceptionally Good + 4 LU Exceptionally Bad - 4 LU

Exp: if e person meets ur needs or treat u very well, u gave him/her +300.
if e person sometimes treat u gd sometimes treat u bad, u gave him/her +10.
if e person realli treat u worst than tat, u gave him/her -100.

Top 5 needs for woman and man.

Woman
1. Affection
- it glue each other tgt.
Affection symbolises 4 things:
1. Security
2. Protection
3. Comfort
4. Approval

Hugging is e most basic for affection. We got to be expressive.

Men
1. Sexual Fulfillment
1 cor 7:4-5
-when he need a physical needs, u as a wife need to be available.

Man start to turn on quickly than woman. While woman take time to turn on.

it take genuinely love n affection to have a great relationship.marriage.

To be continued nxt wk for e nxt four needs for Woman n man.

hmmm.. it realli veri true ar.. =D after e preaching ended, pst Kong asked all e married couple to hug each other n sang a song to their spouse. =D after tat sang one last last praise song before svc ended. lols. then royston give announcements. brothers a side, sisters a side. lol. a bit funny. hahas.. then after tat we went to Pasir Ris n fellowship. =D we went to buy some food n eat. then after buying, we sitted down eat while chatting. after eating, Royston gt 2 news to announcements. hmmm.. one is one gal frm other cg transfer to our cg to help out. e other one is someone frm our cg is transferring out.. guess is who?? is.. mei yan. was a bit shocked. hmmm.. but realli glad to be in e same cg as her. a great sister. hmmm.. hope she will rise up to another level at other cg. =D after we went to interchange n wait fro bus. hmmm.. as usual, me, joanne, grace, kaisheng, kenneth, xian bi n nicholas took bus 58.. n they dropped down first. after tat i'm e last one to drop down. lols. reached hm at 11. lols. n now i'm blogging. =D

2009-02-06T16:13:00.002+08:00

ytd went for aacounting lesson. but after our CARE lesson, we went out.. we nvr go for audit.. =X then we went to century square de samsung n ungrade huiyi's hp.. after tat, we went to food court n hve our lunch there.. then we walked ard for awhile.. we went to Watsons cos huiru wan to buy things.. =) then after we go our seperate ways le.. i took train wif zhi mei, huiru, huiyi n min ling. huiru dropped down at kembangan first, then after tat i dropped down at lavender to go my fren's house.. lols.. i went to mr bean n but soy milk wif pearls.. nice nice.. =) when i reached e bus stop, e bus went off liao.. =( then i hve to wait for 13 mins.. -.- i drank my drink before e bus came.. hahas.. jus nice when i drink finished my soy milk, e bus came.. =D then i board e bus to her house.. after went to her house, waited for her hp to be charged.. sian.. then i do my hw there lo.. lols.. then after tat, she went to bathe.. ard 6 plus then we went off.. -.- we took 14 to raffles city cos she wanna buy bag.. lols... she choose veri long sia... -.- nvm.. after 10 mins, she finally decided to buy e grey coloured bag.. then after we went to infamous brand cos she wanna look for shoes.. diao.. after finished looking, we went to take bus to orchard cineleisure cos she wanna eat at pastamania.. lols.. sian.. i gt to used up my ang bao money still nt enough, then we borrowed $5 to me.. then i bought Al Funghi, n she bought carbonara.. lols.. after eating, we went to cineleisure outside to slack a little while.. ard 9 plus, i saw someone who look familiar.. when i keep looking, it realli is her.. lols.. so coincidence seh.. n waiting for my fren to find someone to accompany her cos i going hm.. but all her frenz either in camp or busy wif things.. sian.. then i hve to accompany her until 11 then can go.. -.- she sent me to e bus stop n wait for bus.. when i reached there, e bus arrived le.. =) then i took bus 65 hm.. sleeping in e bus until i reached my house area there.. reached hm ard 11.35.. lolss. gt scolded by my father.. =( then i went to bathe n went to slp le.. was realli veri tired.. hahas.. to be continued..

2009-02-04T22:51:00.003+08:00

today woke up late.. lols.. i overslept.. actually i wake up at 7 liao but i wanna rest for awhile.. but 7.40 then i wake up lo.. sian.. later than mon by 10 mins.. lols.. then i quickly washed up n bathed.. went out ard 8.15.. i check e timing still early, so i went to buy taquitos to eat n my fruitty vatamin drink.. =) LOVE IT!! but gt one customer asked so long.. lols.. can take my bus 24 de.. but when i crossed e road but haven reach e opposite side yet, my bus came.. sian.. i missed my bus again.. then i hve to wait again.. -.- while waiting, i ate my taquitos.. jus when e bus came ard 8.35, i finished my food le.. =) then i board e bus n went to sch.. reached sch ard 9.10.. lols.. then having lessons until 12.. after AA2 lesson, we can dismissed le.. =)

then we discussed wanted to eat lunch tgt anot.. then in e end me, bee ling n zi yun decided to eat lunch at KFC.. hahas.. then we went there to eat.. we chatted a lot of things.. hahas.. ard 1 plus, we finished eating.. n we went seperate ways.. zi yun n bee ling take bus.. i take train to Clarke Quay.. lols..

reached riverwalk at 2 plus.. sian.. so early n nobody is there.. then i sitted down n do my assignment there.. after awhile, went to e toilet. hahas.. then after tat went back to do my assignment again.. e place getting colder n colder.. *freeze* -.- then after tat, i kept on sneezing.. went to toilet again n washed up.. sian.. getting flu soon.. -.- then ard 6, saw guang xiang, amelia n one of their member.. hmmm..

at 7.30, our bible study start.. firstly, prayed.. =) then start our bible study.. today lesson is Gift of Faith.. Wow.. it cool.. learning a lot in tis bible study.. nxt wk is Gift of Healings.. =) so cool.. expecting it.. =D ard 9, my bible study ended.. sian.. jus now forgot to tap, but then e person gone le.. haiz.. nvm lo.. then i went off to take bus.. when i reached e bus stop, bus 61 came.. =) then i board e bus hm.. hehe.. ard 9.35 reached hm.. lols.. n now i'm blogging.. =)

2009-02-03T14:50:00.006+08:00

our group photo =)

bee ling, sophia, min ling, me n hwee ru.

bee ling, sophia, min ling n me..

ytd went to Bugis Sakae Sushi wif bee ling, zhi mei, hwee ru, huiyi, zi yun, sophia n min ling.. =) before tat, we went to The Face Shop n take a look.. after tat we saw e nail polish colour quite nice.. then we go n try.. i bought one.. zhi mei also.. =)

after tat we went to Sakae Sushi outside n wait for e time to past 3 then we go in n eat.. after we went in, me, bee ling, min ling n sophia sit at one table, hwee ru, zi yun, huiyi n zhi mei sit another table.. =) our competition begins.. see who eat e most plates.. hahas.. wa.. we eat quite a lot sia.. frm 3-6 wor.. we all veri full le.. so we took some photos as above it.. hehe.. they were so funny la.. hahas.. e competition ends at 6.. u wan to know who is e most 'yao gui' wan? is..... hwee ru's grp.. haha.. they eat average abt 10 plates per person wor.. haha.. our grp dont eat much de.. hahas.. but in our table, Sophia eat quite a lot.. our grp e most 'yao gui' wan.. hahas.. then after finished eating, we all went hm le..

bee ling waiting for her sis.. zhi mei, sophia, min ling took train.. huiyi take e other side of e bus stop.. me n hwee ru take e opposite of e bus stop.. =) hwee ru board e bus first.. after tat then i board e bus.. something funny happened.. i bought i-weekly magazine at Shell 7-eleven.. i took one then i went to e cashier n paid.. ytd i didnt touched it.. today morning after washed up n bathed, i took my bag n magazine n went off to sch.. when i was offing e lights, i wanted to open my magaine wrapper then read it de.. but sth had happened.. i i hve 2 magazines in my hands.. i was like 'huh', how come i gt 2 magazines.. i think ytd i took 2 of it instead of 1.. haha.. consider as buy 1 get 1 free.. diao.. then i wanted to give my frenz since i hve an extra copy. lols.. tat's all for e day.. more photos coming up.. =)

2009-02-01T22:20:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RUIYI!!

today i dun know, wake up at 8 plus in e morning.. lols.. ytd slept at 1 plus.. -.- hmmm.. then i go washed up n eat my breakfast, 'ang gu kueh'. lols.. hmmm.. then i used my com until 11.45 then i go n bathe.. prepared finish at 12.30. lols.. then went off to meet my fren.. i went to Shell de 7-eleven to buy drinks.. after tat took bus 22 to Amk.. hehe.. reach there at 1 plus.. lols.. still early seh.. n my fren jus woke up only.. -.- nvm.. then i took train to Yishun.. n i went to 7-eleven again to buy my favourite quick bites, Taquitos.. =D then i walked ard northpoint while i was eating.. lols.. wanted to buy shoes but nt enough.. didnt ask frm my mum.. diao.. then i went to e shopping centre tat nxt to northpoint.. i went to Poh Kim. outside e shop, there is a LCD TV tat show e channel U 10pm shows.. =D it nt bad la but i seldom watch.. lols.. then after tat i went to comics connection outside n wait for my fren.. sian.. says wan to come down le still nve any of his soul.. -.-

ard 2.10 then he reached.. -.- then we went to northpoint to hve his lunch there cos i'm nt tat hungry.. hehe.. then after tat we went to walked ard then he go to arcade n play a game. then after tat went to his grandma house cos he wanted to bathe.. eee.. nvr bathe.. hahas.. sit at e living room n watch tv.. then he went to bathe. out of e blue, gt one malay woman finding him.. haha.. thought wat happened.. oh.. it's e mp3 n some books frm Times magazine.. =) wa.. gt mp4, expression different liao lo.. gt to delay e time again.. cos he wan to transfer e songs frm his com to e mp4. sian.. then ard 6, we went off to boon lay.. n then he enjoyed listening to his mp4's songs.. lols..

ard 6.40, we reach boon lay.. we went to walked ard jurong point cos it quite new. n i first time been to e new jurong point.. diao.. hmmm.. ard 7 plus, we went to a so called korean restaurant n eat... i ate a assorted noodles with spicy seafood soup.. n he ate bbq chilli paste bacon which need to cook by his own.. it quite nice.. but price is a little bit to expensive.. -.- after we finished, it still early.. we went to walked ard.. then he went to a shop tat sells korean food, tonic products n etc.. after walking ar, he saw e 'tai yang bing' wif honey de.. then he wanted to buy.. lols.. n he bought 2 bowl of korean maggie mee.. lols.. then after tat we went to walk at e basement.. n he saw a lot of food tat which is much more nicer n cheaper de.. but too bad lo, cannot change liao.. then after tat he went to 7-eleven to buy things.. ard 9, he went to take van to his camp.. then i took bus 154 hm.. e journey was quite long seh.. i shld hve take train.. if nt i hve alrdy reach hm liao.. nvm.. =D n now i'm hm.. hahas..

2009-01-31T23:28:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO VIVIAN!!

today i woke up at 11.40.. lols.. but still veri tired.. hahs.. after tat i washed up n bathed.. but e time is still early.. lols.. so i go put on make up.. hahas.. ard 12.40 then i finished.. lols.. then i went out to buy some food n drinks.. hehe.. I LOVE TAQUITOS!! =D it nice.. hmmm.. then after tat i took bus 80 n i ate in e bus.. lols.. ard 1.15 i reached kovan le.. lols.. then i wait for joanne n e bus stop staircase tat is near heartland mall.. gt nth to do, then i took photos.. lols.. ard 1.45 she reached le.. she took cab again.. haiyo.. then we took train to hougang to take bus 72 to tamp.. lols.. after reaching hougang, we walked to e bus stop n wait for bus 72.. e bus came after a few mins.. when i board e bus, there's a couple behind me keep on pushing n pushing la.. -.- cant see gt a lot of ppl getting down meh.. sian.. then we went up to e corner seats..

then ard 2.30 we reached tamp interchange.. she went to ta zhiang to buy hair band.. then after tat we went to mphosis.. she bought a pair of slippers there.. then she went to tamp interchange to meet her buyer to collect her cardigan.. =) then we went to Mac n hve our lunch there.. =) ard 4.25, we leaved e place.. n we went to e mrt station n took train to expo.. =) she keep on asking abt her hair.. lols.. it realli nice la.. =D then we reached expo le.. saw desmond, kaisheng, yu ting n jaslin.. lols.. we wrote ruiyi's card.. a bit like christmas card.. haha.. but it nice.. lols.. then after everyone reached, we went in to hall 8..

at 5.30, svc start.. =D pst Kong preaching e Word today.. it abt God and the Ancient China (part B).. wow.. we realli learnt a lot abt our God.. we nvr know e God tat our parent always said 'Shang Di' is whom we r worshipping right now.. it's amazing.. =D ard 7.30, svc ended.. then royston hve some talk.. after tat we celebrate vivian n ruiyi's birthday.. =D today is vivian's birthday while ruiyi's birthday is tml.. =D then we sing birthday song to them.. they hve their speach.. haha.. then they present ruiyi's birthday card n gift.. after tat we off to pasir ris.. before leaving e church, we saw ming jing, our zone supervisor.. hehe.. then we talked to him..

after tat we walked to e mrt station n took train to pasir ris to fellowship.. =) we chatted a lot.. haha.. n we learnt a lot of cantonese today.. =) after we reached, we went to e food court n eat.. =D then we chatted along while we were eating.. =) then after finished eating, we go on our seperate ways.. me, grace, kaisheng n joanne took 58 hm.. n i'm always e last one to dropped down.. lols.. n now i'm blogging.. keke.. gd nite..

2009-01-30T22:49:00.002+08:00

having lesson at 8 today, reached sch ard 7.30.. went to buy bread n eat for breakfast.. hehe.. then went for lesson, mr wong asked me to do question on e whiteboard.. -.- but he released us early at 9.35.. then we went to cafe 1. bee ling, zi yun n zhi mei was eating their breakfast set.. then we chatted along.. hehe.. at 11 is our 2.4km run le.. sian.. i dun like lo.. -.- but still hve to run.. ard 11.10 we start running.. i'm always at e back de.. =( then run, run, run, i thought i ran e last round le, then i take e no card.. but in e end i jus ran 5 rounds only.. diao.. but also failed.. only e first 10 passed 2.4km run, e rest failed.. =( after finished running, we went to e toilet n washed up and rest as we were veri tired. sian.. after tat we went to co-op shop n buy drinks to drench our thrist.. we buy some tidbits too.. haha.. while waiting for zi jia n li min, we sitted down n chat a little.. after tat we go seperate ways.. me n bee ling managed to board e bus tat jus came.. after we reached tamp interchange, we go take different bus le.. i take bus 65 to kaki bukit area to change bus to Joanne's house.. lols..

after reaching tat bus stop, a few mins later bus 51 came.. =) i board e bus.. n i almost dropped at e wrong stop.. lols.. after i reach joanne house de bus stop, i called her.. she jus finished sch... lols.. then i waited for her at her block.. she said she taking cab.. -.- veri waste money leh.. haha.. after she reached, i went to her house.. n there her dog came.. -.- her dog always like to scratch my legs or lick my legs lo.. -.- almost e same as my fren's dog, it jus tat e dog wont anyhow bark.. lols.. then after eating fried mee siam tat joanne's mum bought, i went to her room.. she showed me some hair extensions.. it quite nice la.. nt bad eh.. hmmm.. then after tat she went to bathe n i used her com for awhile.. finding a new blogskin so tat my frenz can see better.. =) joanne wanted to watch movie Bride Wars, then i said ok lo.. =) then we quickly went to hougang cos we rushing to watch e 5.25 show.. lols.. after she finished her postage, we quickly rushed to e mrt station n take train to Dhoby Ghaut..

after 15 mins, we reached le.. we quickly walked to e lift lobby n take lift.. then we went to buy our tickets n we went in le.. e show was a bit funny la.. hehe.. ard 7 plus then e show ended.. wow.. didnt expect it to end so late.. lols.. then we go n buy some food to eat.. after finish buying, we went to e bus stop n wait for e bus to come to go bedok n buy her customers' shoes n her hair extension.. lols.. we reached there ard 8 plus n we go find block where joanne meeting her supplier.. n we found it cos we asked one lady.. haha.. wow!! e hair extension was realli realli veri nice lo.. but i dun realli like to put so nvm.. lols.. ard 9.30 then we left e place.. lols.. then we went to e bus stop n wait for bus.. hers need 10 mins while mine hve arrived le but she asked me to accompany her so i missed e bus.. diao.. then i wait for 12 more mins de.. lol.. after tat her bus reached first, so she board e bus le.. then my bus reached after a few mins.. =) ard 10 plus, i reached hm le.. bathed n change.. n now i'm blogging.. lols.. gd nite..

outing, outing, outing

2009-01-29T17:30:00.006+08:00

it cool eh.. lols..

before goin out.. =D

wif make up de me..

ytd i went to watched movie 'Love matters' wif bee ling, zhi mei, min ling n zi yun.. =D we went to LJS n ate our lunch there except zhi mei.. lols.. but e show was damn funny n nice la.. haha.. we laughed frm e first part to e last part of e show.. lols.. ard 4.20 then e show ended. then after tat we went to plaza singapura to sent zi yun to mrt station.. then we go walked walked awhile before we go find huiyi.. =D

we walked to e 7-eleven bus stop there to find huiyi.. then my fren called.. ask me to meet. -.- so last min lo.. then i said nxt time then meet lo cos i dun wan to ps them n some more huiyi jus arrived.. lol.. then we went to walk at cineleisure for awhile, then we go to Kobayashi there n ate our dinner.. we chatted while we eating.. =) after finish eating, we dun know where to walk.. then we jus walked ard lo.. lol.. then we went to GAP n take a look.. after tat we went to Shaw House n walked.. we went to isetan.. LOLS.. then walk walk n see see lo.. their clothes is quite nice actually.. =D after tat we dun know where to go again..

then we decide to go Mac n slack there.. me n zhi mei bought milkshake, hui yi n bee ling bought oreo Mcflurry while min ling bought straberry sundae.. =D we chatted a lot.. talked a lot abt 'important people'. hahas.. those ppl who were there know wat i talking abt.. haha.. Shhh.. lols.. Wow.. we chatted until 10.35 wor.. lols.. then min ling n hui yi take bus.. me, bee ling n zhi mei take train.. hehe.. reached hm ard 11.10 ba.. hehe.. quite far wor.. lols.. sian.. cos today went to sch lo. =(

除夕夜

2009-01-25T11:26:00.003+08:00

today is 除夕夜 where we will go to gather tgt to eat dinner.. =) ard 5 plus went to my grandma house n hve our reunion dinner there.. we were having steamboat cum bbq.. lols.. quite cool eh.. =) after tat went to living room n watch tv cos i'm full liao.. haha.. then we watch tv tgt.. hehe.. then my uncle give me red packet. haha.. so fast gt red packet liao.. then after tat my grandma give me red packet too.. lols.. then we keep on watch tv n chat.. haha.. watch until 10 then we go hm liao.. my uncle drove us hm.. =D my mum so funny la.. asked me some weird question.. lols.. n now i'm blogging le.. :) tat's all.. to be continue e first day of chinese yr.. few more mins to chinese new yr le.. yeah!!

new yr service plus outing..

2009-01-25T11:08:00.002+08:00

ytd went for chinese new yr svc. =) it was a gd wan.. n today pastor Kong preach abt chinese characters tat relate to our God.. wow.. it's amazing.. then after e svc has ended, some of us decided to go bugis n buy new yr clothes, others gt no place to go.. so we go bugis wif them.. then we took e train there.. when we reached bugis, we were headed to find food to eat as most of us were quite hungry.. haha.. then we went to a place opposite bugis junction to eat e famous wanton mee.. hehe.. some of them eat chicken chop noodles.. some of them buy raisin bread..haha.. when we goin to eat finished, grace said sth to royston, if e wind blow he sure wil blown away.. omg!! haha.. e whole day, grace cannot stop laughing.. lols.. nvm.. then we went to bugis junction de push cart there n walked.. then after tat we wet to bugis street as they wanna find their clothes there.. wa.. over there is so packed lo.. -.- but there r a lot of nice clothes.. tempting to buy but no money.. lols.. nvm.. mayb i using my ang bao money ba.. still thinking. lols.. then we up n down to look for clothes, bags n shorts.. ard 10 plus, they went to Ink n look for bags.. they veri funny la.. gt a few sales assistant keep on asking ruiyi to buy.. n qifeng wanted to help her buy first.. but ruiyi dun wan.. then me n grace said dun force them to buy if she du wan.. haha.. then after tat qi feng bought her bag le.. ruiyi still thinking to go back there to buy after chinese new yr.. haha.. then they went to mrt station as e others hve reached there le.. n i took bus hm.. haha.. reached hm, bathe n changed.. lols.. tat's all.

2009-01-24T23:34:00.002+08:00

ytd reached sch at 7.35.. went to buy a waffle to eat cos quite hungry.. lols.. then after tat i met zi jia at business lvl 3/ lol// then i asked her abt auditing question.. hmmm.. then ard 8 i went to look for mrs ng to check our CA2 results.. then after i went back to audit lesson le.. then i heard bee ling said our bags has arrived.. YEA!! hooray.. finally.. haha.. hmmm.. mr wong dismissed us early at 9.40. lol.. then we go to cafe one to discuss who shld go n take e bags n etc.. but after tat we wanted to go MLC to check their bags de but nvr opened.. then we went to library also nvr open.. but we sitted at e open space to chat abt e bag things again.. in e end, i decided to go to bee ling house first then we meet them at kembangan.. zi yun, zhu zhen n min ling wil meet us at e supplier house de block.. haha... after tat we went for our SW for our napfa test.. thought we wil be having 2.4 km run today but dun hve cos our SW teacher gt appointment.. so we jus took our shuttle run n incline pull up.. nxt fri then we hve our 2.4km run.. ard 11.45, sch ended.. =)

then we go our seperate ways.. i go to bee ling house again.. haha.. we went to a so called shopping complex to buy our lunch there.. then i went to NTUC n bought a drink.. then we walked to her place.. finally reached le.. was so tired lo.. then i ate my lontong whereas bee ling ate her fish soup noodles with milk n checking e bags also.. lols.. after i ate finished, i looked for zhi mei bags too.. sian.. i dun know which one is hers.. -.- then after tat guozheng was chatting with bee ling but she went to bathe.. haha.. then i chatted wif him which i was replaced me as bee ling.. haha.. me n bee ling act as if we r e same person, so he dun know i there is two person talking to him..hahas.. then ard 2.15 we went to take bus.. by e time we went to e bus stop, e bus has gone le.. then i checked e timing for bus 291, n we hve to wait for 15 mins.. omg.. we r late.. then when we reached tamp interchange, we walked quickly to e mrt station as i wanted to top up my ez-link card.. then after topping up my card, we quickly go tapped our cards n went up to take e train tat is approaching in 2 mins.. then we went in after e train arrived.. ard 3 then we reached kembangan.. oh no.. then we saw elin at e control station le.. n we walked to e traffic lights to wait for hwee ru's bf to drive his car out.. after a few mins, we saw them n we hve to crossed e road.. we gt up e car.. n we goin to bukit panjang.. wa.. tat's far seh.. nvm..

ard 20 mins, we hve reached e place le.. then we go n find shu zhen they all.. lols.. but we end up go to e wrong lift.. haha.. n e person only give us 2 big plastic bags.. -.- nvm.. then we went to another block to look for our own bags.. i helped zhi mei to look for her bags.. sian.. gt a lot of mistakes sia.. sophia de missing, zhi mei gt e wrong design, elin also gt e wrong design too.. nvm.. we asked her to changed for us.. then we go to huiru bf's car n put our bags n e back of his car.. then he drove us to orchard as huiru wanted to go there buy new yr clothes.. hahas.. he drove overshot n went to ang mo kio PIE le.. lols.. then we went one big round to go orchard.. while he was driving, some of take a nap.. cos realli veri tired.. ard 4.40 we reached orchard.. then i took mrt wif elin.. as i goin to boon lay to meet zhi mei.. but i dun hve plastic bags.. i gt to carry it all by myself.. :( when i msg zhi mei, i didnt know she was at e same train as me.. haha.. then when i rezhed boon lay i saw zhi mei.. we met at e exit area.. then she checked her bags.. haha.. then we walked to e end n took 179. she dropped off earlier.. then when i reached jurong west church, i felt sth wrong.. cos there is nobody there.. i was like oh no.. then i called zin yu, she said it held at riverwalk.. omg!! i went to e wrong place.. then i quickly went to e oppsite bus stop to take 179 back to interchange.. but when i reached e traffic ights, gt 2 bus 179 came.. by e time e traffic light changed to green man, e bus has gone le.. then i wait for another 179.. n i checked e timing.. it eed 9 mins to arrive.. omg.. then i waited n waited, finally e bus came.. lols.. then ard 10 mins, i reached e interchange.. then i quickly walked to e mrt station n take train.. n i wanted to sit down cos i keep on walking n standing for e whole day, n i was so tired.. then i rest for awhil until it reached outram park cos i need to change train.. ard 7.10 then i reached clarke quay.. n i went to buy a drink before i go to riverwalk.. then when i reached, i went to look for our cg members.. but i didnt see anyone of them.. then i went out again.. then i saw kaisheng they all coming up frm e escalators.. then i go look for them.. n they said joses n desmond reached le.. but i didnt saw them leh.. lols.. then ard 7.40, we can go in le.. n we went to book seats for our cg.. ard 8, e meeting start le.. of course we hve our praise n worship.. hehe.. then after tat we hve some announcements for our zone frm feb to june.. then after tat gt a short video testimony frm a guy called jeffrey.. was veri touched by e video.. then after tat Meng Chin our ZS start e word le..

today msg is abt e ten commandments part B.. which is another 5 commandments.. n every word tat he spoke realli speak frm e bottom of my heart.. i think i realli need to think abt my spiritual life le.. after tat those who wanted to get lay hands by Meng Chin can go down to let him pray.. n i went for it too.. n as we sang, e power of God was so strong n there's a lot ppl falls.. hmmm.. then we sang n prayed until 10.30 or 10.45, then e meeting ended.. then we went out to e open space n gathered. then after tat we fellowship tgt.. we talked abt xian bi's hair.. hahas.. botak liao.. lols.. then xian bi asked us to gathered.. hehe.. he shared abt his life at NS.. lols.. n he read e book tat we wrote to him.. haha.. i know it was veri tough but i know xian bi u can do it de.. God wil strengthen u wherever u go de.. =) JIAYOU!! ard 11 plus, i took bus wif shi min.. hehe.. then after a few stops, i saw elin.. i thought of passing her e bag today but dun need liao.. i jus need to pass it to her straight away.. haha..

but i reached hm at 12.. lols.. it realli late.. so i didnt blogged ytd.. haha.. tat's all.. bye..

a fruitful day!!

2009-01-21T22:24:00.004+08:00

today's lesson start at 9, so i reached sch ard 8.45.. =) first lesson, auditing.. hmmm.. ca understand but still gt a little bit confused.. haha.. nvm.. wil study harder.. =) hmmm.. after auditing was my advanced accounting 2 lecture lesson.. getting more n more understand to tis topic le.. but sometimes i wil either sum upp wrongly or didnt minus up some of e amount.. lols.. must keep away tis blur ways of mine.. lol.. hmmm.. then we went to e restroom after e lecture while zhi mei they all went to buy waffles to eat.. after me, min ling n hwee ru went to e class first.. then mrs ng told us if we can understand e question tat she teach during lecture then we can go le but 11.30 then can go.. lol..hmmm.. then ard 1140, we dismissed le.. then we go on our seperate ways.. haha..

i took bus wif sophia, min ling n zhi mei cos i goin to bedok to help joanne n buy her customers things.. they dropped down at Tanah Mereah mrt station de bus stop.. ard a few more stops, i dropped down at bedok station de bus stop.. =) then i walked to e shop where i helped joanne to buy shoe.. then when i reached tat shop n asked for e size, e assistant say dun hve e size le.. then i msg joanne to inform her abt tis.. after tat i took mrt to city hall cos i dun know where else to go.. while i was taking e train, iread my magazine to keep me company so i wont feel bored.. lols.. n i was thinking to go n hve my lunch.. hehe.. ard 15 mins, i reached city hall mrt station le.. then i walked to riverwalk to buy some food to eat.. n i still doin e same thing , read e magazine n walked to e place.. hahas.. hmmm.. then when ireached tat place, i gt a shocked.. e seats was fulled le.. lols.. nvm.. hve to pack away lo.. then i bought mee siam to eat as i was on veg fast.. haha.. after buying, i went to riverwalk de research centre on leadership to eat whereby we wil hve our bible study there.. =) i went up n nobody else there except there is some of our church staffs were there.. then i ate my mee siam there.. after finish eating then i bought a drink to drench my thrist.. =) then i read my magazine again while drinking my drink.. then ard 2.30, i do my auditing n accounting assignments.. some i can balance some i cant.. so fed up.. nvm.. at least i hve tried my best.. =) then after saw yong xiu n hui ting, one of her member.. they were here to study.. lols.. ard 15 mins, kenneth came.. lols.. he came here to study too.. hahas.. wow.. like we were having reunion for us.. hahas.. i asked yong ziu some questions abt auditing cos she studied tat module before.. but hers is different frm mine.. so cant be able to teach me much.. nvm.. thanx anyway!! ard 4 plus or 5, mei yan n beverley reached.. lols.. mei yan was giving beverley bible study.. hahas.. then she lent me her laptop to me as i gt nth to do there.. hahas.. thanx mei yan..i go to my blog n play games.. hahas.. then i go my facebook n played wif my pets. hahas.. ard 6.30, desmond n joses reached then after tat kaisheng reached too.. 7.30, our bible study start.. my lesson for today is the discerning of spirits.. today's bible study was veri fruitful.. =)

discernment can come in various different ways:

1 discernment may come through an open vision.
John 1:32-33; Rev 16:13-14

2 discernment may come through a supernatural inner impression.
- this is a strong impression that some call it a "close vision."
Acts17:16

The discernings of various spirits
the "discerning of spirits" also operated under God's initiative and control.

e four various spirits is:
1. Discerning the Holy Spirit.
Acts2:3
- as leaders, it is tremendously important that we learn to discern the Holy Spirit in meetings:
~when He is moving
~through whom He is moving
~how He is moving.

*the key to successful ministry and leadership is discerning the Holy Spirit at work. every member must pray for this gift. because without praying, u may end up jus religiously conducting a meeting instead of flowing wif God.

2. Discerning of angels.
-Luke 22:43
-John 20:4-13
-Acts 27:23-24

3. Discerning of human spirits.
-John 1:45-49
-John 2:23-35
-Acts 8:18-23
-Acts 14:8-10

4. Discerning of evil spirits
-Matthew 9:32-33
-Matthew 12:22
-Mark9:17-27
-Luke13:11-16
-Acts 16:16-18

after e bible study, we hve a practiced on discerning of spirits. each of us get a bible or bible study of others de, to sense theirs emotion or mental thinking.. yea.. i guessed right for e one as i was holding his bible.. n there's a gal who holding my bible guessed it correctly.. hmmm.. also dun know when wil my 'hope' come.. i wil wait for it de.. after tat i went to meet my cg members.. then we go seperate ways n i took bus hm.. hehe..

tat's all for e day..

2009-01-20T17:43:00.005+08:00

today woke up at 8.. then i go washed up n bathed.. ard 8.40 prepared finish then i off to sch le.. took bus 24 to sch.. ard 9.35 then reached sch. sophia n bee ling msg me they nt coming to sch.. -.- at 10, mrs ng reached le.. then we do question 1 n 2 for e new topic, consolidated balance sheet.. it quite easy but complicated.. lols.. then 12pm, sch ended.. me, zhi mei, hwee ru n hui yi wanted to go tamp n walk but in e bus we thinking of goin to city plaza n take a look cos quite a lot of clothes there.. then we dropped off to tamp interchange n we took bus 28 to paya lebar.. while we were on e way to paya lebar, they read magazines n i played hwee ru's hp game, bubble breaker.. hehe.. then ard 1.15 we reached le.. we walked to city plaza.. zhi mei n hui yi was hungry, then me n hwee ru suggested them to go Arnold's n eat whereby e fried chicken is quite tasty.. hehe.. n to my surprise, zhi mei first time eat fried food.. haha.. we were enjoying our food n chatting along wif it.. hehe.. after we finished eating, we went to shop as they were buying chinese new yr clothes n some accessories.. hahas.. we walked frm 5th floor to e 1st floor.. haha.. hwee ru n hui yi bought a long leggings tights.. hui yi bought a shoes too.. hehe.. wa\ow.. we didnt know tat we walked until 4 plus lo.. hwee ru's bf came ard tat time to accompany her.. haha.. ard 5, we thought of goin hm le.. zhi mei n hui yi followed hwee ru to go to e mrt station while i waiting for bus at city plaza bus stop which is jus in front of e shopping centre.. haha.. then now i'm blogging le..hehe..

Test, test, test

2009-01-19T22:10:00.003+08:00

yesterday slept at 1 plus in e morning, but today i woke up at 7.10.. sian.. so few hrs of slp.. n today is my CA exam.. went for first lesson but our Audit teacher let us revised our work.. =) ard 9.45, we were dismissed for class.. we walked to lecture theatre to prepare n sit for exam.. at first, i look at e papers, i still hve confidence in it de, but after do finished n passed up, i asked my frenz for some of e questions.. gt quite a lot of difference.. =( gt no more confidence liao... =( nvm.. at least i tried my best, i'm sure i can pass my exam de.. =) then after tat we sittted at e study area while waiting for e nxt lesson.. me, sophia n hwee ru buy milk n yoghurt.. hehe.. they sitted there jus to talked abt e test.. haiz.. dun worry la.. sure can pass de.. JIAYOU!!! ard 12.15, we went for another lesson.. go there also nth to do.. jus chit chat only.. actually jus need to check our answer is it correct anot only.. then we can go home liao.. haha.. but we stay there use internet instead of checking answer. =X but in e end we still checked la.. hehe.. at 1pm, sch ended le.. yea!! actuall wanted to go bugis wif hwee ru n zhi mei de, but i bought all my new yr clothes le, so dun feel like goin.. sorri.. bao qian wor.. then i walked wif bee ling to e bus stop to wait for bus 31.. then we saw Jujuu n Felicia.. we chatted a little while waiting for e bus to come... after a few mins, e bus came but it full.. -.- then we wait for another bus.. lols.. a few more mins, another bus came.. tis time round e bus wasn't tat full.. yea!! finally can get into e bus.. lols.. ard 10 mins, we reached tamp interchange le.. then we walked seperate ways to take bus home.. hehe.. then a few mins, my bus came.. yea! i board e bus n went up to find seats.. sitted down n take my phone out to listen to my mp3 songs.. hehe.. ard 45 mins, reached my house area.. =) then went to e hawker centre n find some food to eat as i didnt eat my breakfast.. lols.. n our grp was having a veg fast for tis wk.. so i keep on finding wat to eat.. lols.. then i went to e other side of e coffee shop, wanted to buy mee siam or lontong but they didnt sell, in e end i bought roti prata, 1 plain n 1 cheese.. yea!! my fav.. yummy!! then i quickly went hm n eat my brunch.. hahas.. =) tat's all for e day..

2009-01-18T17:32:00.003+08:00

yesterday i slept ard 1.45am, today ard 8.30am i was alrdy half awake. lols. then i go back to sleep again.. ard 8.45 my father woke me up.. -.- nvm.. i sleep back again.. haha.. then ard 9.15 then i wake up.. lols.. then i go n use my com for awhile.. hehe.. ard 11 then i go n washed up n bathed.. ard 11.45 i went off to meet Joanne. :)

took bus 28 to Bedok but end up i reached 12.15 but i meet joanne at 12.45. lols.. i reached so early sia.. hahas.. then i went to bus interchange n wait for Joanne.. as i went a place to sit while waiting for Joanne, i listened to my mp3 songs.. hehe.. ard 12.45, sth happened.. there is one middle-age guy beside asked me to teach him how to use nokia phone cos i'm using e same brand as him.. -.- then watever he asked i teached him.. wa.. i taught him frm 12.45 to 1.30 sia.. n Finally he has finished asking.. Phew!!

ard 1.45, Joanne reached.. wa.. waited for her ard 1 hr plus.. lols.. then she went to buy her customers shoes.. after buying e shoes, we went to LJS n eat our brunch.. hahas.. we chatted a lot while we were eating.. hehe.. then went to this fashion, she looking for a vest n cardigan.. hahas.. after we went to Princess n see whether e cinema is still there anot.. i heard Joanne said e cinema closed down liao.. sad lo.. nxt time no more cheap movie tickets le.. =X haha.. when we reached, n we saw e cinema realli closed down le.. :( after at 3pm, both of went back hm as we dun know where else to go to le.. lols.. then we go seperate ways n took our bus hm.. tat;s e end of e day.. :)

oh ya.. tml is my AA2 CA2 le.. was a bit scared but i still hve a bit of confidence. hehe.. hmmm.. but i worried abt section B. wil e question e difficult or tricky, i dun know liao.. sian.. No matter wat, i wil JIAYOU de!! With God, all things are possible.. =D

2009-01-17T23:13:00.003+08:00

today i woke up at ard 10 plus.. then i washed up n eat my breakfast while using com.. lols.. hmmm.. then i used it until 2 plus.. ard 2.30, mu mum bought seafood noodles soup for me.. thanks mummy!! hmmm.. after eating my noodles, i went to bathed n off to church.. went out ard 3.30 n took bus 24 to expo control.. hehe.. after i reached expo, i went to 7-eleven n buy a drink then i go to control station to see whether they reach there le ma.. i saw Joses n Kaisheng strumming guitar.. haha.. enjoying listen to them.. haha.. i start to hve e interest to learn guitar le.. lols.. then after tat, one by one reached expo le.. then ard 5, we went in to find our members.. haha.. we sitted at delta terrace.. hehe.. then we sitted down to wait for e service to start.. =D

5.30. service started.. i love guitar strumming n e atmosphere there.. like all e praise songs.. :D then after worship songs.. i realli engaged in e spirit n realli prayed as much as i realli could.. i love e new song tat sing"And still i believe there is more i believe there is more i believe, so i open my hands to receive, all that your love has in store" it realli true n touches my heart.. n i realli believe tat as u start to believe n trust in Him, He wil fulfill wat u wan..

then after e announcement n offerings, Pastor Tan start preaching.. today e title is prayer..
prayer is everything tat we need in our lives, nt jus physically but spiritually..n there is one novel says, "Life is e preparation of eternity." N if God has a need, all he need is fellowship.. we got to know wat God wan us to do in order to fulfill his Words.. we got to do wat God is doin n as we begin to pray, we wil know wat God has called us to do.. Mark 10:24 - it is nt by how riches entered to e kingdom of God, it is by e trust tat u hve in Him..

how should we pray?
!. Be open to hear God in your prayer - Acts 9:8-12
Saul was nt supernaturally made heal, he was supernaturally made blind..
we need to close our eyes in pray in order to ask God to show u e vision and go to e supernatural way..

2. Be specific in your prayers.
write down wat Holy Spirit has inspired u in Prayers.

3. Be persistent in your prayers.
Keep on praying on wat u wan to hve in your life..
pray until u hve breakthrough in e area tat u wanted to hve in tis 2009.

when u pray, STAY FOCUS!! =D

then after tat, we worship again.. n there is altar call.. n then e svc ended.. then Royston was talking to us abt wat Pastor has jus said.. then after tat we celebrate GRACE birthday.. happy birthday grace.. but today isn't her real birthday.. haha.. it falls on e tues.. haha.. then after we sing her a birthday song, she talked a little to our cg.. then we present her birthday gift, it a bag.. hehe.. hmmm.. after tat we prayed for her.. n then we go to our own small grp to hve a short talk.. :) n as we talked n talked, time run fast.. ard 8.15, we still in church.. lols..

then we went to Pasir Ris for fellowship.. =D then we walked n talked n e same time.. then i talked to Jin Ye n Ruiyi.. we having a girls talk.. erm.. it so weird. haha.. ok.. nvm.. =P so we reached Pasir Ris, White Sands.. we went to Kopitiam hve hve our fellowship there.. :) we chatted while we were eating.. lols.. now i realised our cg is getting lamer n lamer.. hahas.. ard 10, we walked to interchange n wait for our bus.. hehe.. before e bus came, we chat a little.. hehe.. ard 10.30, e bus arrived.. =D then me, kaisheng, kenneth, nicholas, jun yong n grace was taking e same bus.. hehe.. then i saw jun yong's PSP gt pool game.. haha.. he wanted to ply then in e end he didnt played at all.. then i asked whether i can play, then he let me played.. yea!! then i start to find wat mode to play.. at first, a bit blur because cos i dun know how to played, jun yong also dun know.. lols.. then i figured out, n finally i know how to play le.. haha.. n i keep on losing it cos always aim wrongly.. -.- but i was too engrossed on tat game till jun yong reaching i still playing.. haha.. n then i stopped.. haha.. then e nxt stop they dropped down too.. haiz.. n i sitted alone in e bus.. hehe.. nvm.. must be independent.. haha.. ard 11 then i reached home.. hehe.. then i bathed n now i using com n blogging.. hehe.. =D tat's all for e day.. =D

First cg of e yr

2009-01-16T23:32:00.005+08:00

today was having NAFA test. wa.. i was so worried lo.. cos wasn't veri gd at some station.. today we were doin sit up, standing broad jump n sit and reach.. my worst station is standing broad jump.. :( hmmm.. then after my S&W, i went shopping wif Zi yun, then afer tat we saw hwee ru n her bf.. lols.. then we shopped a little. then there went their own way. we continue our shopping.. haha.. after tat we went to interchange n take a look too.. still waiting for bag to come tat i hve ordered frm my fren.. sssoo long lo.. -.- after tat i went to queue at e ticket office to change e adult ez-link for my mum.. e most funny thing is zi yun forget her mum asked her to go back early.. lols..then after queuing up for ard 30-45 mins, finally my turn.. lols.. after tat i went to mac n buy a double cheeseburger for my lunch.

then i went to Joses block there cos i dun hve anything to do.. lols.. i ate my burger there.. haha.. then after eating finish my burger, i dun know wat to do.. then i played my hp games.. sth weird happened.. gt 3 primary sch students wanted to find seats to do their homework, then they sitted at my place. lols.. it so weird cos i was playing games there.. n some more it is quite noisy there too.. then after awhile they went back hm to study.. lols.. then after playing games until 3 plus or 4, then i remember tat i hve some audit homework to do.. then i quickly took out my textbook n do my assigments. while doin some of e questions, i saw adabelle n wayne.. lol.. then we chatted a little.. ard 5.30 then they went back to sch for parent teacher meeting.. while i continued doin my assignments, i saw adeline.. haha.. today i met a lot of ppl sia.. lols.. hmmm.. ard 6.20, Joses finally reached his block.. lol.. we saw kenneth too.. lols.. we went up to his house.. n wait for others to come then start cg.. after awhile they reached le..we played game called cat n dog.. lols.. then after tat we played bang bang.. haha.. funny sia.. :D

after a long while didnt hve our cg, finally we hve it today.. then cg started.. hehe.. we were praying for 2009 tat we wil hve a better year tis yr.. yeah!! then after tat we start praise n worship.. after tat it was testimony time.. haha.. Wow!! quite a lot of them sharing their testimony.. i also wan.. nxt wk i shall share my testimony.. hehe.. n finally Royston start e Words.. he shared a lot of things before he start.. n one thing he said realli true, "life is like mountains n valleys, there is high n low", "your consistency determines your success". it so true.. then he start e Word le..

today cgm is talking abt how to pray for the 10 commandments.. n e first 5 tat he go thru realli impact my life.. n i realised there were some areas tat i realli hve to change especially honoring my parent n putting God first then other things.. then after finishing everything, we start to pray again.. after awhilt, it's offering time.. u reap wat u sow.. like e bible verse, " as u sow sapringly, u wil reap sparingly, as u sow abundantly, u wil reap abundantly.. yea!! then after tat cg ended, fellowshipped hve jus started.. haha.. we talked ard, joke ard, make fun of each other n etc.. then awhile, some went hm, some went to eat.. haha.. i was e one of them who went..hm.. haha.. ard 11 reached hm le.. bathed n now i'm blogging.. haha.. tat's all for e day.. update tml.. hve a nice sweet dreams..

2009-01-15T18:13:00.003+08:00

yesterday went to sch until 12pm.. then hve lunch wif zhi mei n zi yun.. after i was heading to Min Ling's house, saw GuoZheng. haha. got company le.. lols.. while i was travelling to min ling house n he is goin back home, we chatted a little.. haha.. it was quite fun. lols..

ard 2, i reach min ling house. lols. she told me my msn got hacked.. i was shocked.. i quickly go n changed everything.. sian.. hmmm.. then i used her com for awhile as i was waiting for e time to pass.. lols.. then after tat i watched tv for awhile.. then my fren called me ard 5.30, asked me to find him.

then i went to west mall n i saw him. lols. at first we was goin to eat Sakae Sushi de, because of my vouchers only can use minimum of $50 in order to get a discount of $10. then he said he dun wan liao.. wa. i travelled all e way here then he said he dun wan to eat at Sakae Sushi.. THANK AR!! then we went to food court n eat.. he treated me wif a dessert.. dun know wat is it. haha.. then we walked ard e whole West Mall.. after tat we walked ard bukit batok area.. n he went smoking.. sian.. so smelly.. -.- then after we walk back to west mall again to slack a little.. went to library as he wants to slack there.. idiots him.. after tat we go outside area to sit n relax awhile.. ard 9.35, his frenz drove him back to camp.. n then i travelled back home frm bukit batok.. it such a long way.. -.- reached home ard 10 plus.. oops.. it was quite late at tat time.. went to bathed n switch on my com for awhile, ard 12 plus i went to sleep..

tat's all for e day.. hehe..

hihi

2009-01-15T16:55:00.000+08:00

welcome to my blog.. i jus blogging for fun.. :D